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Lately, I've been stressed. Then again, when have I not been stressed? Stressed because of things at home, stressed because of things online, stressed because of things outside. Everyday I listen to my mom complain about my job. She complains about me being at home and when I finally get a job she complains I give them extra hours. I don't mind ( Read more... )

So I wrote in my tumblr yesterday about 7 months. It's funny how I change around with these two sites. I guess livejournal is the place I go to write my longer rants. So lately, my sister has been sick, my mom has some weird pain thing going on. Today I was on call for them. Whenever they wanted something I had to get my butt ready and get to work ( Read more... )

So today I got my package from hyung, the package with MaoMao's book, keychain and boxers, the package with aniki's reward for me and sweets from hyung. I was excited when my sister brought it in along with our take out, until I saw it wrapped in plastic with a seal "Received in Damage Condition" over it from the Postal Services. The enveloped was ( Read more... )

Dreams and the future has always been a touchy nonexistence topic for me. When I was younger though, I was full of dreams, things I wanted to do when I got older, things I wanted to accomplish as years passed. But as I grew older, my dreams started to change, and they started to fade. Maybe it's what happens when you grow up ( Read more... )

These past couple of days, I'd hide whenever I have a chance. I'm online but I barely talk to anyone besides those that I always talk to. I tried to talk to a couple of old friends, but I was just pushed away and one even said "you never cared before, don't try to care now". It's starting to feel that to most of my friends, I'm not a friend. I'm ( Read more... )

Today, I shut off my phone in attempt to try to catch some sleep and threw it somewhere in my room. It took me awhile to find it but after I rolled in the bed for hours playing with kitty, I decided to turn it on. I had a whole load of texts from Ray and a couple of missed calls from him and my mom. I didn't bother calling them back. I was too ( Read more... )

Today I talked to a little birdie, that told me about my faults in my relationship with my boyfriend. He told me to accept the fact that he's dying and leaving me, and that I give false hope. I'm making him fight too hard and causing him pain. He should be leaving this world in peace, not in pain fighting for me. The birdie called me a princess, ( Read more... )

These three nights, I've been thinking to myself, what will I do if the worst does happen? What will I do without the person that pulls me to my feet, without the person that holds me through everything. Yesterday lollipop hyung told me he and Ruito-san were wondering who will take it the hardest once the worst happens, it was between me and Ki. ( Read more... )

Today was a crying day for me. Overall I was crying all day, and having trouble. So it seems his fever wasn't just a fever after all. Doctors suspect it to be more than that and truthfully, not everyone is positive about it. But I promised to stay positive so I did, I wiped the tears and smiled best I can. I told my mom truthfully the reasons I ( Read more... )