Happy 2013, the world didn't end after all. 2012, the year where I lost two people I loved, two people that have a place in my heart that can never be replaced. Reminiscing the times we had together, they seem so long ago, seem so short, too short, and times like this, like Christmas, and all those other holidays, I cry, cry because, I know I can ( Read more... )

Hi baby, happy anniversary ( Read more... )

I realized that the 22nd is a special day for us, we met on July 22nd, and your birthday is on October 22nd. I missed you, it's been six months and a day, I miss you like crazy. Every time I think about you, I still tear up, but then, I think about you and how I promised to smile for you and I take a deep breath and smile again. It's silly right? I ( Read more... )

A couple of days ago, someone said I was trying to steal their crush. Truthfully, I've been getting a lot of that lately, am I really doing something to these people? It's starting to feel like I am. Yesterday was our nine months, I read the letter he send me for our first day meeting. I'm kind of ashamed of myself, I don't remember the first day ( Read more... )

Today I looked at the sky while I was on a bus back to campus. It's been awhile since I've looked at it to be honest. I've been scared to look, cause every time I look, every time I talked to him I ended up sobbing. But today, I felt something urging me to, and so I looked up. I looked up and I smiled. During the whole bus ride I kept talking to ( Read more... )

I'm going to leave a warning before anyone reads this, it's going to be depressing, but I really had to get this out somehow, somewhere, and this was the only place I can turn to. It got worst after saw I certain picture and read a certain post on tumblr, so I'm sure after you read you will understand. So it's going to remind some people of certain ( Read more... )

Dear Mao Mao ( Read more... )

Today I walked out late at night to get my sister from work. I looked up in the sky remembering what he said, "stars represent love" and saw nothing. Until I looked really hard, and saw this one star looking back at me. It made me smile and warmed my heart. I waved at it, thinking it was him looking down at me and pretended he waved back at me. I'm ( Read more... )

I cry easily. It's just who I am. I see things that remind me of him and I tear. Truthfully, it's gotten better these two months. I'm doing better, smiling more, tearing less when I think of him, seeing the things he bought me. My friends, people I call my family are helping me by pulling me through this. A hug a day whenever I see them, a pat ( Read more... )

Happy half a year! It's another month, been together for 6 months now. I missed you. I missed waking up on our anniversary dates to spams on my wall of pictures, videos, messages. Are you still celebrating them like I am? Whispering things to wolfie like I am to kitty hoping that it'll get to you? Are you hugging wolfie tight at night like I'm ( Read more... )