Today I got a phone call from my sister. My grandpa is in critical condition, he suffered from a heart attack yesterday when no one was home and he is now having trouble breathing and in the hospital. I'm scared. Me and my grandpa... I used to hate my grandpa. Why you may ask? Because my grandpa never once liked or complimented my dad. I never saw ( Read more... )

These three nights, I've been thinking to myself, what will I do if the worst does happen? What will I do without the person that pulls me to my feet, without the person that holds me through everything. Yesterday lollipop hyung told me he and Ruito-san were wondering who will take it the hardest once the worst happens, it was between me and Ki. ( Read more... )

Today was a crying day for me. Overall I was crying all day, and having trouble. So it seems his fever wasn't just a fever after all. Doctors suspect it to be more than that and truthfully, not everyone is positive about it. But I promised to stay positive so I did, I wiped the tears and smiled best I can. I told my mom truthfully the reasons I ( Read more... )

I can't even explain how I feel now... Sick, cold, worried, tired, sleepy... and yet, I can't sleep and I can't focus on other things... I feel broken... when the past haunts you and the present starts to fade... 

As someone who watched my parents divorce at the age of 13, family was always a sensitive topic for me. I remember when I was 5, my brother was just born, me and my sister who's a year younger would treasure our little brother. As we grew up, we took care of him and played with him. I remember when my sister put make up on him and I put oranges in ( Read more... )