Today I got a phone call from my sister. My grandpa is in critical condition, he suffered from a heart attack yesterday when no one was home and he is now having trouble breathing and in the hospital. I'm scared. Me and my grandpa... I used to hate my grandpa. Why you may ask? Because my grandpa never once liked or complimented my dad. I never saw ( Read more... )

Life was perfect for me, never once did I ever think about going through hardships. Life isn't a fairytale like I always thought it was. It's not all fluffy with wonderful endings. I'm barely even 20, and I hate the fact that I can never have a happy ending with the one I love the most. I want to be with him, forever. I beg on my knees, I cry while ( Read more... )

I woke up feeling pain all over my body today and I felt like crying. I admit, I DREAD seeing Ruito-san in my messages, because it's never anything good from him. I love him as a friend, but I hate the bad news I get from him. My husband is slowly losing the battle, and it hurts. It hurts to know that soon, the one I love will leave me one day and ( Read more... )

These three nights, I've been thinking to myself, what will I do if the worst does happen? What will I do without the person that pulls me to my feet, without the person that holds me through everything. Yesterday lollipop hyung told me he and Ruito-san were wondering who will take it the hardest once the worst happens, it was between me and Ki. ( Read more... )

I can't even explain how I feel now... Sick, cold, worried, tired, sleepy... and yet, I can't sleep and I can't focus on other things... I feel broken... when the past haunts you and the present starts to fade... 

I decided to talk to that person again, as she messaged me first, and so I just replied back. I wanted to help during the hard times she was going through, although I was breaking down from some news I found out about, I tried to help her. I don't know what I did wrong, and I still feel like crap for what happened. I was 'unfriended' and I have no ( Read more... )

There was an old saying, if you make 1000 paper cranes, you can get a wish. So I decided to try to make 1000 of those cranes and make one wish. For a miracle to happen. Truthfully, I wish I was stronger... Wish I wasn't such a crybaby as I cry over every small thing. But to know that he cried because he thinks he would hurt me when he has no ( Read more... )

It's been awhile since I wrote. Actually, I didn't intend to write for awhile, but thoughts came up today after reading his journal entry. My mom always told me life's not fair. No matter how we see it, what we do, life won't be fair, because that's just how life is. We're not meant to get everything we want in life, and everyone has to go through ( Read more... )

Today, my friend, lollipop hyung finally told me what was exactly wrong with my boyfriend. I sat in my room reading it over and over again and literally broke down in tears. Truthfully, I'm a crybaby, easily crying all the time and easily hurt. But this time, I couldn't stop. Especially when I started listening to the videos he send me, in one of ( Read more... )

As someone who watched my parents divorce at the age of 13, family was always a sensitive topic for me. I remember when I was 5, my brother was just born, me and my sister who's a year younger would treasure our little brother. As we grew up, we took care of him and played with him. I remember when my sister put make up on him and I put oranges in ( Read more... )