I started remembering why I did dumb things to myself. Started to remember why I closed myself. But the question is more of why am I remembering all of this now? Why am I remembering these things? I want to stop my head from working. Maybe if I stop thinking, my head would stop hurting, I could concentrate on things without pushing everything out ( Read more... )

Lately, I've been stressed. Then again, when have I not been stressed? Stressed because of things at home, stressed because of things online, stressed because of things outside. Everyday I listen to my mom complain about my job. She complains about me being at home and when I finally get a job she complains I give them extra hours. I don't mind ( Read more... )

So I've been kinda stressed lately, because of work, family and friends. At work, there's this student who's the teacher's sister, and she bullies others, especially a student that likes to cling to me and sit with me. The student she bullied was very upset about it and told one of the teachers. I got blamed for this because he told me about it and ( Read more... )

Today, for the first time ever, I decided to give up on helping others. Among others, one of the first was James. These couple of days, this Donghae roleplayer been pestering him about his past. Turns out he got us confused and thought James was me, but I sorted everything out. And to make sure he doesn't do what he's done, I made that Donghae ( Read more... )

These past couple of days, I'd hide whenever I have a chance. I'm online but I barely talk to anyone besides those that I always talk to. I tried to talk to a couple of old friends, but I was just pushed away and one even said "you never cared before, don't try to care now". It's starting to feel that to most of my friends, I'm not a friend. I'm ( Read more... )

Weekend home again. I dread the weekends no, I HATE the weekends, now more than school, and knowing in two weeks I'll be having a holiday makes me tremble. I'm tired of going home using the time I have to relax and getting scold at taken out anger on instead. It's hard to be told things like "why do you always smile and laugh, do you not feel pain ( Read more... )