I haven't been this depressed in a long time. I know I've been telling you guys about everything that's been happening lately, but now I feel like I've just hit rock bottom and I can't even stand up. I'm on 12 week medical leave from work at my team leader's urging because my ability to perform my job has just gotten... abysmal. This is my first ( Read more... )

So I was serious when I said I was learning to tattoo. It's been a good thing to throw myself into during this time. Anyway, I have a mentor who's been tattooing for almost 20 years, and I try to go into the shop at least three or four times a week to learn. I've already inked my first tattoo onto myself, which didn't turn out half bad considering ( Read more... )

Been a while, but I need to vent how sad I am. Things had been going really well with my green-haired darling, and then they all got ripped to shreds. ( it hurts to be the healthy one )

Sorry to be annoying, annoying, annoying, but typing this stuff kind of helps me think!!

( scrape these barnacles, i am whole again, finally purified or whatever that means )

Saw my green-haired darling again today. So confused by what happened ( Read more... )

So today I met up with my green-haired darling for lunch, and all my freaking out that he would bail on me was just me freaking out after all. I gave him a giant hug when we first met up and then we went for lunch. While we were sitting, he did admit he was a little afraid that seeing me would be awkward and such, but I told him he was being ( Read more... )

Slowly, slowly but surely, things are turning around. I didn't get the job at the Upper West Side store, but that is kind of okay, because I wasn't sure I liked the dynamic of the office there. And besides, today, my team leader said she thought I ought to set my sights on the Brooklyn store when it opens, and that she would talk to regional about ( Read more... )

I’m super done with all the usual representations of Duo Maxwell, the American Gundam pilot. They’re usually really overly patriotic or too… homegrown, I guess. Maybe it’s just my idea of Duo as a character, or maybe just my own life, but I prefer a more urban identity for him. A Brooklyn punk he’ll be to me, and I guess that’s why I’ve suddenly ( Read more... )

Resurfacing with an update. Things might actually be getting better, though at the moment it is now a waiting game and that is beyond frustrating for me. Long story short, I ran into my green-haired darling at one of our favourite hang outs in Union Square. He averted his eyes at first, but I eventually walked right up to him and asked if we could ( Read more... )

Be proud, all. I made a bold move the other day to block my green-haired darling on Facebook. I still care about him and think about him a lot, and I have to admit, I worry that I'm sending him the wrong message by doing so, but I really needed to so that I wasn't constantly assaulted by the life he was enjoying without me. Or at least, appearing ( Read more... )