A Bold Step Forward

[link_worshiper]

Be proud, all. I made a bold move the other day to block my green-haired darling on Facebook. I still care about him and think about him a lot, and I have to admit, I worry that I'm sending him the wrong message by doing so, but I really needed to so that I wasn't constantly assaulted by the life he was enjoying without me. Or at least, appearing

Comments

[mmariep2]

Good for you.

You need to concentrate on yourself, and worry about him later. I'm a hardcore advocate for discovering/fixing/learning about/building yourself up before attaching yourself to someone else.

Let him take care of himself for once. He's grown, he can do it. Once you get yourself straight, you can open that avenue to him once again and see how you do.

*hugs* Stay strong.

[link_worshiper]

Yeah. I think that is what this whole separation is really about in the first place, but it's just really stressful because I'm only hearing this information through a mutual friend, and also I am going through some serious shit right now, and it's tough to do without a little support, and I worry it'll freak him out. I mean, I'm sitting here withdrawing srsbsns from my meds because I didn't get a refill soon enough and I like... haven't slept in two days. And I wish I could call him and have him calm me down like he always used to, but I can't. Like, I'm just not sure he really gets what I'm dealing with here. AT THE SAME TIME, he needs to get the picture that he has some of his own shit to sort out too, so... yes, you're right... he needs to put on his big girl panties and figure out how to move his life forward from his pattern of avoidance.

Thanks, though. You guys are great.

[sharona1x2]

Good move. You need to take your attention off of him as much as possible. If you have access to how he's doing, the temptation is there to focus too much on him. You need to get your focus totally on you for a while.

I did the same thing with Jay when we broke up for six months when we dated. It was horrible for me at the time, but it all worked out for the best.

[link_worshiper]

Definitely. It sucked so much, and I actually had to make my friend physically do it for me, because I couldn't bring myself to, but I am less afraid of checking up on Facebook now that I'm not stressing out about what he's doing or the things he's enjoying without me. At the moment, I am seriously realizing how much I need to focus on myself... get my meds and such in order (as I am having some srsbsns withdrawal right now, and it is THE WORST THING IN THE WORLD). There is plenty of time for him to realize how serious the shit I'm dealing with is. Besides, he has to solve his own stupid bullshit

[link_worshiper]

Yeah, you're totally right. It sucked so hard to have to do it, but it has kept me from freaking out about what he's doing, and thus showing him that I am not dependent on him. Hopefully it will all pay off. They never told you this shit in the fanfics.

[bloodywingz]

Happy Birthday!

[link_worshiper]

Thanks!