Meet Me At The Pretty Lights Time Of Day, Where The Pretty Lights Give Me Your Pretty Face

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So today I met up with my green-haired darling for lunch, and all my freaking out that he would bail on me was just me freaking out after all. I gave him a giant hug when we first met up and then we went for lunch. While we were sitting, he did admit he was a little afraid that seeing me would be awkward and such, but I told him he was being ridiculous. Our conversation all through eating and even after were mostly casual, and I think that helped him warm up a little bit that he didn't have to be scared of me. We talked about more things we all had been doing on our own, and he said he was glad to hear that I had been painting more, and also that he had gone to the Bowery store to look at the painting I have hanging there, which I found interesting. I also nerd-raged at him for asking me if I'd ever heard of Macross like it was something obscure. (Then I nearly table flipped when he said he hadn't heard of Urusei Yatsura or Gunbuster! Say WHAT?) There was one point where I started to tell him a little bit about my borderline personality disorder and some of the stuff they had identified for me at the hospital, and even though we didn't talk very long about it, he did ask if I thought all that stuff was helping me, and I told him a little bit about my adventures in therapy since I got out. He then grabbed me and gave me this really good, long hug that seemed to say all the things I think he was afraid to say about that stuff. (Though I made a point throughout the time we spent together to get him to talk about things he had a hard time saying or to think about why he felt various feels.) He even agreed to go to a Laura Stevenson concert with me towards the end of the month, though I kind of strong-armed him into agreeing to it, haha. All in all, I think it was a good step in the right direction and that things will eventually tumble where I want them to. When I dropped him off at work, he said he had a nice time and that he was only scared for a little bit of it, but that he'd like to hang out again and for a longer duration next time. "Baby steps," he added right before he turned to go into work. He even insta-texted me like five minutes later to tell me that his 3DS picked up Miis. Adorable.

Man, just being around him... it made me really remember how much I love spending time with him.