Hmm, so much in my head again ( Read more... )

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's ( Read more... )

The insecurities are back. It's slowly seeping in. I was better then but I think I'm turning back to how I was then. Sighs ( Read more... )

 There's a million things running through my mind at the moment. Honestly most of them are negative though I'd rather not ponder on how negative things are. All the negativity isn't even worth it to think about, so I sit here gathering my thoughts and trying to get myself to stop trembling. No doubt that this has been a big blow, mercilessly ( Read more... )

I just slept all day today. Probably running away from myself or my own thoughts. I know all this torture is my own doing. That it's all in my own head. Emotionally dragging yourself down, hurting yourself...in other words emotional suicide ( Read more... )

 Nagpapahanap ka di ka naman hinahanap.

Ah. Wow. What a day. I know my place then.
As always, I wasted another day.
Waiting for something that wouldn't happen.

The only good thing about today is, I slept all day.

 There are times I wish I never added everyone on social networking sites, on blog sites, or just anything where I can throw my thoughts to. I start to feel cautious and slowly I start feeling boxed up. Like "Oh I can't post this here because this person's going to see or this person's going to find out" the whole process of letting your thoughts ( Read more... )

You can't expect
You shouldn't expect
You'll get hurt.

You already are hurting.
I swear I've been in this limbo for too long.
It's torture...

Maybe I'm torturing myself.

 At some point you just can't help but feel that everyone's going to leave you behind and all you can do is just watch them go and smile because you know that they're going to do way better there than here. It's hard because it's all I get, all I read is people going for days and I'm just pretty much stuck here right in front of my laptop staring ( Read more... )

 I'm back to feeling like not wanting to be home and not wanting to be out. Not wanting to be in the company of anyone...The want to disappear and all that is strong again. Everything's so cold and I can't even meet the eyes of my mom. I guess I'm ashamed of who I am. That I'm such a let down.

I just want to go poof... :(