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There are times I wish I never added everyone on social networking sites, on blog sites, or just anything where I can throw my thoughts to. I start to feel cautious and slowly I start feeling boxed up. Like "Oh I can't post this here because this person's going to see or this person's going to find out" the whole process of letting your thoughts lose just goes to waste. Maybe i should stop opening my world to people, my world is peaceful...lonely at times but at least I'm not hurting too much. I used to have secret blogs, blogs where I had the freedom to write anything and everything without being judged but I told someone and the whole point of it went to waste....
But at the same time, I crave for attention. I want attention. Only ending up to get some by posting entries about being sad and all that. It's the only way for people to care. If you don't have problems then who would care right? If you're not hurting or sad who'd come and be there?
So you don't really know where to put yourself. Most of the time you want to disappear from the face of the earth and wonder if someone's going to find you...at times you hope no one would.
But at the same time, I crave for attention. I want attention. Only ending up to get some by posting entries about being sad and all that. It's the only way for people to care. If you don't have problems then who would care right? If you're not hurting or sad who'd come and be there?
So you don't really know where to put yourself. Most of the time you want to disappear from the face of the earth and wonder if someone's going to find you...at times you hope no one would.