I didn't sleep much. I thought I would because crying is exhausting, but I couldn't. I never got into that deep sleep. I kept waking up. I only checked my phone for the time twice. Once at 2:30am and then again at 6:45am, when I decided that going back to sleep seriously wouldn't happen. It was so hard to get to sleep. It wasn't my bed, my ( Read more... )

My relationship has ended. It hurts, so much, and right now I don't have the tools to cope with that properly, but I am trying the best I can. It makes no sense, and I'm not going to try to figure it out just now. There are no words for any of this, but it has to go somewhere, so it will go here. Writing has always served me so well in the past, ( Read more... )

I seem to be lacking motivation today. Well not motivation. Focus maybe? I want to study, but I can't keep studying. I write a few notes, get bored and turn to Facebook, or MSN, or solataire, or iTunes to flick through songs. I know the solution to this problem would be to turn the computer off, but then I would have no music, and I need music. And ( Read more... )

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Christmas is almost upon us. Work was crazy today. Both more and less crazy than yesterday. We had more check out operators on all day, so it didn't seem like it was so bad, but at the same time there was still like sixty people waiting to come into the store half an hour before we opened. I got everything done earlier, and spent more time doing ( Read more... )

I had a really, really bad headache all day today. I guess that's what happens when you go to bed angry and wake up angry. I made Mark walk up to work and bring me some codeine pain killers, because they seriously do work. I'm also not angry anymore. Work was calming, because it was a good day, and a busy day, and I got everything done pretty ( Read more... )

I don't really have the motivation to write, but I said I would after my first counselling appointment. I left way too early and ended up walking around the streets up there passing time, but I didn't really know how long it would take to get there because I didn't really know where it was. It was raining for most of the way there, which was ( Read more... )

I'm in this house alone tonight. I've gone to sleep alone before when I've gotten sick of waiting up for Mark. But I've never woken up alone. This is a first. Three months in a house and this is the first time I'm by myself. I'm not scared. I'm a big girl now.
He's over with Daniel. Daniel's girlfriend is away for a week, which explains his ( Read more... )

Ok so I'm having a freak out moment here, seriously. I have no money. And when I say no money, I don't mean I won't be able to go and buy clothes or new shoes, I mean, I probably can't afford groceries this week. I have been paid for ten hours. That's $160. I can't live off that. I was supposed to be paid for 28 hours, because that's what my ( Read more... )

I wonder if strictly no pets includes fish. I think I want some fish.

I bought tulips from work on Thursday, just because. They're orange. They had already flowered but now they've started to open up and they're absolutely gorgeous. I took photos of them on the film camera and I can't wait to develop them. I also have some purple Singapore orchids ( Read more... )