As far as I know my online friend is alright. It got to the stage where I couldn't really handle thinking about her doing it and trying to talk her out of it because it was taking a toll on me, and then a second online friend starting saying how she was going to end it. I just couldn't cope. I was so worried and frazzled and just getting really ( Read more... )

There was a boy today, suprisingly. He came and asked for an induction pack off me and he looked nice and sounded nice and he looked at me like he thought I was nice. It sent a little jolt through my stomach cause that doesn't happen very often at all. I stole a look at his name and birth date when he handed his pack back in. He had an awesome name ( Read more... )

It's happened now, and I don't even know if I have the words to tell it, but if I don't then I'm just going to sit here with it all festering up before Mark gets home, and that's when the world really will come crashing down.

Azaria didn't even tell Mark's cousin. She just said she did. Her and Mark are having "distance". I told her that distance ( Read more... )

The other day I posted this note on Facebook asking others to write something about me to put in my little "about me" section, and I got some really nice responses.

So I'm really sick of thinking up potentially interesting and not too conceited things about myself to write in that little section, and I don't really know what about me lately ( Read more... )

I want to lose weight. And not in a "oh my god I'm so fat and ugly and no body will ever want to see me naked" type of way. I'm just so unfit, and my stomach is a little tiny bit pudgey, and I don't want it to be. I used to be fit. I used to be able to run around a soccer field and not die. I used to be able to hold my leg parallel from the floor ( Read more... )

This is my back to real life entry. I've been a bit consumed trying to figure everything out that I think I've gone a bit crazy. I feel like I owe someone an explanation of the last few days, especially after the last real life entry after I watched Girl, Interrupted.

Ok, so Friday was a bad day. I keep thinking that it was a good thing that I ( Read more... )

So I need to argue against the core belief that continually tells me that "I'm not good enough". I do think I am almost there. Like I know in my head that there are times when I am good enough. My friends obviously think I'm good enough for them, or else they wouldn't stick around. Even now, as I've let a few people in to places where a year ago I ( Read more... )

I'm back into that mood that I was complaining about losing yesterday. Ok well not really. At work yesterday I had a train of thought, but by the time I finished work and came home and relaxed I wasn't really thinking along those same lines. Now I can again, but it's worse than that as well. I'm so tired. I can't believe that I had at least eight ( Read more... )

This is going to be a list of all the people I've ever named in this blog, just so that if someone wants to know something about someone they can come and read a little bio bit about them. And I guess I'm doing this for myself as well. In alphabetical order.

Edit 21/11/09: Since yesterday I started writing with real names I'll rewrite the list so ( Read more... )

I'm not doing the NoJoMo challenge thing for day five. It's all about writing a postcard from your perfect holiday, and I really don't have the imagination for that. I don't know what my perfect holiday would be, or why I'd be sending a postcard from it. If I wanted someone to know about it, they'd be there with me.

The challenge for day six is to ( Read more... )