For once I'm covered in cuts and scratches that are accidents, that are not by my own doing. They're from the kitty, honestly. My last cuts are fading though. I notice them, but maybe that's because I know that they're there. They're all faded enough that I was brave enough to go swimming without finding some lame shorts to wear over the top.

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So I need to argue against the core belief that continually tells me that "I'm not good enough". I do think I am almost there. Like I know in my head that there are times when I am good enough. My friends obviously think I'm good enough for them, or else they wouldn't stick around. Even now, as I've let a few people in to places where a year ago I ( Read more... )

I'm back into that mood that I was complaining about losing yesterday. Ok well not really. At work yesterday I had a train of thought, but by the time I finished work and came home and relaxed I wasn't really thinking along those same lines. Now I can again, but it's worse than that as well. I'm so tired. I can't believe that I had at least eight ( Read more... )

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Today I want to be pretty, but I'm really doubting whether I can pull it off.

I just keep remembering the last time I sent Drena some photos of me, and she said you could see the sadness in my eyes. If it's there, than why does no one notice it? I don't know if I want to face Precious today after I've planned to go to her party tomorrow night and ( Read more... )

The issues of self confidence came up in my appointment yesterday. She asked if I was self confident, and I stumbled on an answer. I answered no, I said I wasn't. But there's more to the answer than meets the eye.

If someone would meet me say for fifteen minutes, or see me at the pub, or with my friends, or in public anywhere, they would say that I ( Read more... )