Restless Heart Syndrome Ch 35/?
Fic title: Restless Heart Syndrome
Genre: SPN Het
Pairing: Sam/ OFC, Dean/OFC (Lexi, played by Eliza Dushku)
Rating: M
Warnings/Spoilers: None
Summary: New town, new school for Sam. It's his fifth high school in three years but John promises it's going to be Sam' s last one. Dean and Sam settle into their new routine and enjoy being normal. A few months after school starts Sam meets Lexi. He could tell she was trouble the moment he laid eyes on her but it's the kind of trouble he's always wanted. Dean feels the same way about the new waitress at the diner.
*This is a prequel to Under Your Skin and Wayward Son.*
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Chapter 35: Love Song
“Whenever I'm alone with you, you make me feel like I am home again. Whenever I'm alone with you, you make me feel like I am whole again… However far away, I will always love you. However long I stay, I will always love you. Whatever words I say, I will always love you.”
*Disclaimer: Any recognizable characters belong to Kripke. It's his sandbox, I'm just playing with his characters.* This is a prequel to Under Your Skin and Wayward Son. I hope you like it! Please review!
July 1, 2002
Sam sits out on the balcony off the kitchen nursing his coffee while people watching. He closes his eyes to focus on the smells and sounds of the quarter. Somewhere off in the distance the sound of a lone trumpet playing reaches his ears. Sam gets why Dean loves this city. Besides the obvious party vibe and food, New Orleans has a distinct personality. It has a heart and soul. It’s unlike any city that Sam has ever lived in. After only a month, Sam Winchester finds himself under the city’s spell. He supposes part of it has to do with Jackie but there’s also some kind of undeniable magic infused within the heartbeat of New Orleans.
“It’s a little early to be brooding even for you Sammy.” Dean remarks before taking the seat across from his brother.
“I’m not brooding…”
“The hell you’re not.”
Sam peers at his older brother taking in his appearance and hisses, “God damn Dean, you reek like sex.”
Dean leans back in his chair, hands folded behind his head, a self-satisfied smirk turning up the corners of his mouth. “I know. Morning sex is awesome. Ya know what’s even more awesome?”
“No and I don’t wanna know.” Sam snaps.
“Morning blow jobs.” Dean states matter of fact.
“Dean, is that all you two do, screw each other’s brains out?”
“No.” Dean scoffs. “We go out and stuff. Me and Lexi just have a healthy sex life is all.”
“Hmm hmm,” Sam replies with a roll of his eyes, “or it could be that you’re both nymphos.”
“Whatever man. You’re wasting a golden opportunity with Jackie.”
Sam pulls a face. Dean’s always trying to pry info out of him and give him unsolicited sex advice. He’s getting sick of it. Sam puts his coffee down and huffs, “Why don’t you go take a shower?”
“Fine. You wouldn’t be complaining about me stinking if you got some pussy yourself. You’re not a virgin anymore Sammy, stop acting like one.”
With that Dean gets up and heads to the bathroom leaving Sam alone on the balcony to brood. So yeah, Dean has a point but Sam isn’t like his older brother. He isn’t into casual sex or flings, not that there’s anything wrong with those things, Sam wants more. He wants more with Jackie. He didn’t want whatever it is between them to only be a summer fling. Sam likes her a lot and wants a relationship with her. Problem is in a month he’ll be heading back to Stanford. The other problem is he knows Jackie wouldn’t be into the whole long distance relationship thing. Sam runs a hand through his hair and sighs. No he isn’t gonna do this. For once, he’s going to take a page out of Dean’s book and have some fun and to hell with the consequences.
*~*~*
Dean never hears the bathroom door open over the rush of water so he’s more than surprised by the shock of cold air when Lexi opens the shower curtain. He raises his eyebrow as she slips in behind him. “What are you doing?”
“Taking a shower with you. Unless you want me to leave…” Lexi states with wide, innocent eyes before pulling him into a kiss. Dean returns her kiss eagerly, tasting the mint of her toothpaste. She pulls away before things get too heated, a slight smirk on her face, “I take it you want me to stay?”
“Yes.” Dean replies instantly.
“Ok, then I guess I’m staying.” Lexi says with a grin. She stands on tip toe, her hand sliding up the back of his neck while she draws his mouth to hers. She kisses Dean softly, her fingers slipping into his short hair.
“Hmm, my lucky day.” Dean whispers against her lips before going in for another kiss.
He moves forward, his hands clutch Lexi’s hips groping her ass while crushing her against him. Dean moves his hands up to cup her face, his thumb rubbing her cheek as he licks into her mouth. She returns the kiss parting her lips and moaning softly when his tongue slides against hers. Dean's hands slide up into her hair, his kisses becoming more urgent with each passing moment. He steps back suddenly panting.
Lexi groans when Dean breaks the kiss. She nips along his jaw up to his ear while she wraps a hand around his dick. He jerks in her grasp causing her to stop kissing along his neck. “You’re jumpy.” She says lightly.
“I’m just a little stressed.” She rubs her thumb in slow circles over the head of his cock causing him to jerk his hips groaning, “Damn Lex......”
“Guess, I’m gonna have to help you to relax.” She says with a wicked grin before sinking to her knees.
Dean swallows hard and opens his mouth to say something but the words die on his lips when Lexi flicks her tongue against the tip of his cock. She runs her tongue from root to tip dragging her tongue over the head of his cock and then turns her attention to the underside leaving him gaping silently.
He shifts his hips in an effort to get closer to the heat of her mouth. Lexi pulls back, the sudden rush of cold air hitting his cock making him want the heat of her mouth that much more. Lexi glances up at him and smiles. She’s holding him in front of her mouth, his tip mere centimeters from her lips. It’s taking all his self-control not to push himself past her lips and start fucking her mouth. Lexi rolls her fingers over his balls as she begins placing little fluttering licks to the tip that has Dean squirming in mere seconds. “Lexi…stop teasing…” he whines, he wants more contact, needs more contact, “you’re killing me here baby girl.”
Lexi flicks her eyes up to his finally taking him into her warm mouth. Dean breathes in sharply as she draws him into her mouth at a deliberately slow pace. He slides a hand into her hair, the other blindly grabbing for some purchase. Dean braces his left hand against the wet tile and focuses on the suction of Lexi’s mouth in an attempt to not getting over zealous and choke her. It takes all his self-control to not thrust into her mouth. Dean curses under his breath as she swirls her tongue around him working him in deeper and deeper.
“Lexi....” Dean whines while his eyes slide close.
Dean makes the mistake of opening his eyes to watch her. He reaches down, brushes her hair off her face and cups her jaw with his left hand. He moans low in his throat. The sight of her lips spread wide and moving over him, her mouth full of his cock is almost enough to send him over the edge. He fists his hand in her hair and starts to thrust shallowly into her mouth. Lexi welcomes the motion, hollows out her cheeks sucking harder and moans around him.
He bites down on his bottom lip when he hits the back of her throat. Lexi relaxes her throat and swallows. Her muscles contract and tense around him causing Dean to start to lose control. He thrusts faster, less coordinated, he’s teetering on the edge. Lexi moans around him again, the vibration of her throat going right through him. She does it again. Dean tightens his grip on her moaning her name as he comes hard and fast. He lets go of her hair, his body sagging, as she swallows and runs her tongue over the head of his cock one final time.
“Fuck, Lex,” Dean drawls as he reaches down to help her to her feet, “you got a talented mouth.”
Lexi smiles at him then places a soft kiss to his lips, “So, you say. I’ll leave you to your shower. I gotta get to class.” With that she gets out of the shower leaving Dean to stare at her retreating back.
Voodoo Tattoo
Frenchmen Street
New Orleans
Dean takes a deep breath as Jackie begins to add more color to his tattoo. It isn't so bad. In truth, the outline had been much worse. This is the final session for his Phoenix. Well really, it’s just to touch it up and add some more color and shading to make it really pop. Jackie pauses asking, “You want some music?”
“Sure.”
She turns the radio on then reminds Dean to let her know if he needs a break. She works in silence for about twenty minutes until Dean can't take it anymore. He clears his throat before saying, “So, I talked to Sammy.”
“Oh?”
“Everything cool with you two?” Dean asks trying to sound casual.
“Yeah. Why do you ask?”
“I dunno, he was acting strange.”
Jackie raises an eyebrow then says lightly, “Well, you Winchesters are a strange bunch.”
“Yeah, that ain’t no lie…”
“Lexi wasn’t kidding when she said you and Sam were night and day.” Jackie says with a chuckle. “But I think I’m finally getting him to loosen up. Don’t expect us back at the apartment tonight I plan on keeping him out all night.”
“Good luck with that, Sam’s a light weight.” Dean smirks.
640 Royal Street
New Orleans
Dean gets back to the apartment to find Lexi at the kitchen table. She has several text books and her notes spread out. She glances at him and smiles, “You were gone a long time. Did you eat?”
“Nope, I was at the tattoo parlor the whole time. I was gonna order some pizza.”
“Sounds good.” She closes her text book with a raised eyebrow. “Are you gonna show me the finished product or not?”
“Oh yeah.” Dean laughs before shrugging out of his button up. He pulls his t-shirt over his head and turns around.
“Wow. Dean, that's...”
He turns back around eyebrow raised. “You don't like it?”
“No,” she grins, “I love it. It's sexy as hell.”
Dean leans down pressing a kiss to her lips. “Oh yeah?”
“Oh yeah.” She nods. “By the way I saw that there’s a Clint Eastwood marathon on AMC tonight. You wanna hang out on the couch, watch the marathon and order some take out?”
“Yeah Baby doll, that’s exactly what I wanna do with you tonight.”
Once the pizza arrives, Dean goes into their bedroom stripping down to his boxers and t-shirt. He goes back out to the living room to find a six pack, napkins and the open pizza box on the steamer trunk they’re using as a make shift coffee table. He smiles at Lexi then goes to mess with the thermostat. Dean turns the a/c up and flicks the switch on for the ceiling fan. “It’s fucking hot in here.” He grumbles.
“It’s July in New Orleans.” Lexi shrugs. “What do you expect?”
“Aren’t you hot Lex?” Dean asks as he joins her on the couch.
“No, I’m comfortable.”
“You’re crazy.”
“So, I’ve been told…” She says with a laugh before turning on AMC. “Relax, babe, watch the movie, eat and have a beer.”
“Yeah, okay.”
Lexi spends more time watching Dean than she does the movies. She thinks it’s adorable how much he’s into the movies. Dean knows every line. He says them under his breath, his eyes all lit up. As much as she loves seeing Dean so happy and excited, by the end of the second movie, she’s bored. Instead of saying this, she gets up and stretches before cleaning up the coffee table. Once she has the trash thrown out and the left over pizza in the fridge, Lexi goes into their bedroom to change.
Lexi comes out of the bedroom a few minutes later wearing Dean’s favorite Led Zeppelin t-shirt and a pair of boy shorts. He turns to look at her taking in what she has on and grins, “You’re wearing my shirt…”
She crosses the room stopping in front of him. “I like wearing your shirts. I can take it off if you want…” She states lightly.
“You look so damn sexy in my shirt ya know that.” Dean says low and husky as he leans forward, hands clutching her hips to pull her between his knees.
Lexi begins carding her fingers through his short hair massaging his scalp. Dean closes his eyes and feels his body relax immediately. He leans into her touch letting a small moan escape his lips. Lexi sighs and continues to run her fingers through Dean’s hair while he pulls her shirt up slowly. Dean nuzzles his face against her stomach inhaling her scent, “God you smell so fucking good...I could eat you up.”
Lexi freezes and swallows hard, “What?”
“Said, I could eat you up.” Dean states before pressing kisses to her stomach. “I owe ya for this morning’s shower…”
Goosebumps race along her skin as Dean kisses and licks her stomach just above her panty line. He dips his tongue beneath the hem of her boy shorts causing Lexi to gasp and shiver. He smirks against her skin then moves lower kissing her right through her panties. Lexi’s fingers tighten in his hair and says his name in a breathy little moan. Dean knows he’s got her now.
Dean slides off the couch and onto his knees in one fluid motion. He clutches Lexi’s hips to tug her closer then runs his hands over her ass. He glances up at her smirking before lowering his mouth and swiftly sucking her clit right through her panties. She moans, fingers gripping his hair and Dean does it again. He runs his tongue along her stomach right above her panty line while Lexi begins to squirm. All she can think about is having Dean’s lips and tongue move down her body. It’s taking all her self-control to not push Dean’s face into her crotch. Just as these thoughts run through her mind, Dean slides his tongue under the top of her boy shorts. He suddenly bites down on the fabric and begins to pull off her boy shorts with his teeth.
“Dean…” Lexi gasps watching him with wide eyes. “What are you doing?”
He smirks up at her with mischievous eyes, “I want to taste you. Panties are in the way.”
She stares down at him whispering, “Jackie and Sam can come back at any minute.”
“Don’t worry about them Lexi, they ain’t coming back home for a while.”
Dean holds her gaze for a beat then smiles that shit eating grin of his. She's bare, freshly waxed and all he wants to do is run his tongue along her. He licks his lips, runs his hands down the outside of her thighs and then back up the insides of her legs before he pushes them apart. Dean leans forward, licks a broad strip along the length of her slit then moans low and dirty. “Hmm you taste so sweet baby girl.”
He places soft kisses down her slit causing Lexi to squirm impatiently. Dean takes his time. He runs his tongue around her folds then presses his tongue flat before licking another long strip up her slit. Lexi tightens hold of his short hair, her fingers gripping and yanking while he scraps his teeth over her clit.
Dean stops for a moment to nuzzle his face into Lexi. He breathes in her scent, she smells so good; musky and sweet. His nose is against her clit, his hands moving down the back of her legs. Lexi sways unsteadily while she feels him breathing in her scent. Her hands move down to grip his shoulders to steady herself. “Dean,” Lexi gasps, “please…”
Dean pulls back slightly, eyes flicking up to hers then wraps his lips around her clit. He moans low and dirty as he sucks, the vibrations going right through her. He runs his tongue around her folds biding his time until Lexi starts saying his name in that breathy moan of hers. Once she does Dean pushes his tongue inside her and starts licking her like there’s no tomorrow. He laps at her folds, running his tongue up and down the length of her slit with firm broad strokes. Lexi grinds against his mouth, the high whining noises coming from her making his cock throb with need.
He grazes his teeth along her clit then flicks his tongue against the bundle of nerves as Lexi whines, “Dean…oh God…” Dean wraps his lips around her clit, sucking gently. Her fingers are back in his hair tugging and pulling while she mumbles his name repeatedly. He moans low in his throat, the vibrations going right through her causing her to tremble.
“Dean, I think…” Lexi stammers, her fingers tightening in his hair. He pulls off her clit, licks up and down the length of her slit, his teeth and lips grazing over her clit every time. “Oh, God. Dean…” She whines, “I’m gonna cum…”
Dean tightens his grip on Lexi and pulls her flush to his mouth. He glides his lips and tongue over her before turning his attention to her clit. He wraps his lips around the bundle of nerves sucking hard and swirling his tongue until he's got her moaning and shaking. He feels her muscle tense, her finger nails digging into his scalp while she whimpers his name and a string of curses. Then he's licking her clean, drinking down all her juices as she rides out her orgasm.
Dean sits back on his heels, runs his hands down her legs and gazes up at her. Lexi’s eyes are closed, face flushed while she sways unsteadily trying to catch her breath. Dean licks his lips, the sight of her like this as she comes down from her orgasm captivating him. She’s the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen and now all he wants is to be inside her.
He stands up, hands resting on Lexi’s hips pulling her closer then bends down to kiss her. His kiss is demanding and dominate, full of want. Lexi relaxes in his arms letting him set the pace while she parts her lips for him. He slips his tongue into her mouth groaning as she bites down on his bottom lip.
Dean steps back pulling his t-shirt off and tossing it towards the couch. He grabs the hem of Lexi's shirt pulling it over her head and tossing it in the same direction while she shimmies his boxers off. He smirks when he sees that she's braless. Dean reaches out, hands slowly moving over her breasts and her stomach before he turns straddling the leather steamer trunk.
Dean grins at Lexi gesturing for her to join him. Once she’s close enough, Dean places a hand on each hip. He slides his hands down her legs and then pulls her left leg over his right and does the same with her other leg so that she's straddling his lap. Lexi drapes her arms loosely around his shoulders before she presses her lips to his.
He cups her face in his hands, his thumb rubbing her cheek as he licks into her mouth. Lexi returns the kiss parting her lips and moaning softly when his tongue slides against hers. Dean's hands slide up into her hair, his kisses becoming more urgent while his tongue explores every inch of her mouth until they're both panting. Dean pulls away suddenly with that little smirk on his face that Lexi thinks is adorable.
Dean wiggles his eyebrows at her before leaning forward and swirling is tongue over her nipple. He sucks it into his mouth causing her to make that desperate little moan he loves so much. He grins, turning his attention to her other nipple. Dean slides his tongue in a broad swipe over her right nipple while rolling and pinching her left nipple between his fingers. Smirking against her skin, he takes the nipple into his mouth, his teeth skimming against the hard bud then he slides his right hand between her legs, his fingers moving quickly to find her clit. He rubs her slowly until Lexi's moaning and grinding against his hand.
“Dean…” Lexi whimpers as he removes his hand from between her legs, “Why are you stopping?”
“Baby doll, I'm just getting started.” Dean whispers in her ear while he runs his hands up her legs.
Dean grips her hips and lifts her guiding down on his cock with a grunt. Lexi’s breath hitches, the feel of Dean filling her up still catching her by surprise. “Oh fuck…”
“You okay, Lex?”
“Yeah, I'm fine.”
She rests her hands on his shoulders leaning over him, her long brown hair falling against his face. Dean’s hands clutch her hips, his fingers digging into the soft flesh. He runs is tongue along his bottom lip, tangles one hand in her hair and draws her mouth to his. Dean kisses her slow and deep, his tongue grazing her bottom lip. Lexi moans into his kiss and rolls her hips slightly.
She nips at his jaw and begins sliding up and down his dick. His hands are restless, skimming over her skin as she moves on top of him. A sudden roll of her hips and Dean's biting down on his lip trying to stifle his moan. She smiles at him sliding a hand up the back of his neck, her fingers slipping into his short hair. “Oh fuck. That's it Lex, ride me just like that.” Dean grunts.
Dean braces his feet on the floor, tightens his grip on her hips and thrusts up into her as if it’s been years since he's last seen her. Lexi screams his name, back arching while her nails bite into his shoulders. He drives into her relentlessly, thrusting up into her on every down stroke. Lexi rolls her hips faster as Dean moves his hand between them to press against her clit. She closes her eyes and whimpers his name again while trying not to lose her rhythm. Dean knows she's close, he can feel a slight tremble in her legs.
Lexi’s body is an overwhelming feel of tingles leaving her light headed. Dean nips at the sensitive spot where her neck meets her shoulder while rubbing his fingers over her clit. Her breath is coming in short pants now as she clutches his shoulders to steady herself. She feels the muscles in her legs tighten suddenly while Dean continues to relentlessly drive into her. Lexi’s vision blurs and she breaks out into a light sweat. Everything around her disappears except for this hot, tingly sensation. She feels like she's being pulled from all sides, melting and exploding at the same time. A few more hard thrusts and she comes undone. Her orgasm slams right through her causing Lexi to make that high pitched moan that Dean loves so much.
“Fuck, Lex…” Dean moans as her walls clench around him.
He closes his eyes biting down on his bottom lip and groans. He tightens his grip on her hips driving into her harder, the way he likes it. Dean can feel the tension building steadily in his stomach, he knows he’s not going to last much longer. A few more hard thrusts and his hips begin to lose rhythm. He bites down on his lip, his body shaking while colors explode behind his eyes. “Oh fuck…” he groans as he comes hard and fast.
Dean rests his forehead against Lexi’s trying to catch his breath. He pulls away slightly staring at her with wide green eyes, a small smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. He presses his lips to Lexi’s soft and gentle before asking, “You okay Baby girl?”
“Yeah, I’m good.”
“You up for round two?” Dean asks with a smirk as he tightens his arms around her and stands up forcing her to wrap her legs around his waist.
“Hmm hmm but in our room.”
Dean smiles tilting his head, “Bedroom it is then.”
He carries her the short distance from the living room to their bedroom kissing her the whole way. He puts her down as soon as they cross into the bedroom, cups her face in his hands and kisses her with more urgency. She moans into the kiss parting her lips as his tongue trails across her bottom lip. Dean steps back breaking the kiss then laces his fingers through Lexi’s. He leans down kissing her neck before leading her over to the bed.
Dean lays down on the bed and gestures to Lexi to join him. She smiles slightly and then joins him on the bed. He kisses her softly sucking her bottom lip into his mouth before he pulls away. He stares at her for a beat, his eyes locking onto hers while his fingers brush her hair off her cheek tenderly. Dean feels the weight of her gaze causing him to suddenly feel vulnerable. He drops his eyes momentarily then looks back up at Lexi.
Lexi smiles at him sliding her hand between them to wrap around his dick. “Lexi…”
“Shh…” she replies cutting him off as she squeezes him.
He jerks into her hand, her thumb rubbing the head of his cock before she begins to stroke him. Lexi tilts her head up nipping at his chin then kissing along his jawline. Dean lets out a shaky breath while she makes her way down his throat placing little nips and kisses before licking the hollow of his throat.
She holds his dick firmly, feeling him harden as her fingers move along his shaft quickly.
Dean closes his eyes and digs his fingers into Lexi’s hip. He moans low in his throat thrusting into her hand. Lexi brushes her thumb against the head of his dick, squeezes and moves her hand faster. His breath hitches, he can feel the tension building steadily in his stomach. Lexi nips at the sensitive spot behind his ear, squeezing and tugging his dick as he grips her hips harder, then suddenly stops.
Dean stares at her with a ‘What the fuck?’ look. Lexi can’t help but smirk at his indignation and presses a light kiss to his lips before saying, “I was just getting you ready for round two but if you rather cum in my hand…”
“Yeah, no, wanna be inside of you baby girl. . .”
He wiggles his eyebrows causing her to laugh while he puts her leg up over his hip. Dean’s green eyes lock on to hers when he pushes slowly into Lexi. She bites down on her bottom lip her fingers digging into his biceps waiting for him to move. He brushes his lips against hers once more then begins to move slow and deep.
Dean sets up a slow, burn rhythm that has her arching her back and pressing her hips against his. There's no urgency this time. Dean wants to take his time. He wants to kiss, touch and feel all of her. His hands move all over her body, tracing every inch of skin and curve. His hands slide down to grasp her hips as they move together, pressing and pulling. He watches Lexi as her eyes flutter shut letting herself get lost in the feeling of them moving together.
Lexi opens her eyes and watches Dean's face contort in pleasure. She slides her hand up the back of his neck pulling him closer to catch his lips for another kiss. He pulls away letting his tongue trail over her bottom lip. He kisses along her jawline slowly while making his way up to her ear. Lexi feels her body tighten and tingle, her vision blurring while Dean continues to thrust into her. She clutches his biceps moaning his name as her orgasm hits her hard.
Dean feels the exact moment when he hits that sweet spot. He can feel the pressure building and building inside of him. He bites down on his lip pushing further into her knowing he's not going to last much longer himself. Moments later, his own orgasm slams into him. Dean closes his eyes, hips bucking, as he calls out her name. Dean rolls onto his back then reaches for Lexi. He wraps his arms around her pulling her against his chest. Lexi closes her eyes and relaxes in his arms, his warmth engulfing her. She nuzzles her face deeper into his neck inhaling his scent. Dean rubs her back whispering, “You know I love you, right Lex?”
“Hmm hmm, I know. I love you too.”
“I’m thinking…” Dean sighs while continuing to rub her back, “I think about us, ya know, normal and together…with kids. I came here to take a break from hunting, to decide what I really want. I know what I want. I’m gonna stop hunting and stay here. Ya know try to be normal with you. Unless you don’t want me to…”
Lexi smiles then kisses Dean softly, “Of course I want you to stay that was our plan after all.”
Dean holds her tighter against him then presses a kiss to the top of her head. Laying here in their bed, Dean knows he's home. He can't remember the last time he’s felt like that. With every fiber of his being, he knows this is where he belongs. He's going to have a life with Lexi, one that she deserves without monsters. A normal life is what they’re going to have together, with a job and friends, and a future where he doesn’t die bloody and alone. He knows he can make this work. He has to because now Dean can’t imagine a life without Lexi in it. The only thing standing in his way is his father. Dean knows that John’s gonna be angry and probably disown him like he did Sammy. But Dean is going to walkway from the life anyway. Sam’s right, their Mom wouldn’t have wanted this for them and revenge is not going to bring her back.
Genre: SPN Het
Pairing: Sam/ OFC, Dean/OFC (Lexi, played by Eliza Dushku)
Rating: M
Warnings/Spoilers: None
Summary: New town, new school for Sam. It's his fifth high school in three years but John promises it's going to be Sam' s last one. Dean and Sam settle into their new routine and enjoy being normal. A few months after school starts Sam meets Lexi. He could tell she was trouble the moment he laid eyes on her but it's the kind of trouble he's always wanted. Dean feels the same way about the new waitress at the diner.
*This is a prequel to Under Your Skin and Wayward Son.*
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Chapter 35: Love Song
“Whenever I'm alone with you, you make me feel like I am home again. Whenever I'm alone with you, you make me feel like I am whole again… However far away, I will always love you. However long I stay, I will always love you. Whatever words I say, I will always love you.”
*Disclaimer: Any recognizable characters belong to Kripke. It's his sandbox, I'm just playing with his characters.* This is a prequel to Under Your Skin and Wayward Son. I hope you like it! Please review!
July 1, 2002
Sam sits out on the balcony off the kitchen nursing his coffee while people watching. He closes his eyes to focus on the smells and sounds of the quarter. Somewhere off in the distance the sound of a lone trumpet playing reaches his ears. Sam gets why Dean loves this city. Besides the obvious party vibe and food, New Orleans has a distinct personality. It has a heart and soul. It’s unlike any city that Sam has ever lived in. After only a month, Sam Winchester finds himself under the city’s spell. He supposes part of it has to do with Jackie but there’s also some kind of undeniable magic infused within the heartbeat of New Orleans.
“It’s a little early to be brooding even for you Sammy.” Dean remarks before taking the seat across from his brother.
“I’m not brooding…”
“The hell you’re not.”
Sam peers at his older brother taking in his appearance and hisses, “God damn Dean, you reek like sex.”
Dean leans back in his chair, hands folded behind his head, a self-satisfied smirk turning up the corners of his mouth. “I know. Morning sex is awesome. Ya know what’s even more awesome?”
“No and I don’t wanna know.” Sam snaps.
“Morning blow jobs.” Dean states matter of fact.
“Dean, is that all you two do, screw each other’s brains out?”
“No.” Dean scoffs. “We go out and stuff. Me and Lexi just have a healthy sex life is all.”
“Hmm hmm,” Sam replies with a roll of his eyes, “or it could be that you’re both nymphos.”
“Whatever man. You’re wasting a golden opportunity with Jackie.”
Sam pulls a face. Dean’s always trying to pry info out of him and give him unsolicited sex advice. He’s getting sick of it. Sam puts his coffee down and huffs, “Why don’t you go take a shower?”
“Fine. You wouldn’t be complaining about me stinking if you got some pussy yourself. You’re not a virgin anymore Sammy, stop acting like one.”
With that Dean gets up and heads to the bathroom leaving Sam alone on the balcony to brood. So yeah, Dean has a point but Sam isn’t like his older brother. He isn’t into casual sex or flings, not that there’s anything wrong with those things, Sam wants more. He wants more with Jackie. He didn’t want whatever it is between them to only be a summer fling. Sam likes her a lot and wants a relationship with her. Problem is in a month he’ll be heading back to Stanford. The other problem is he knows Jackie wouldn’t be into the whole long distance relationship thing. Sam runs a hand through his hair and sighs. No he isn’t gonna do this. For once, he’s going to take a page out of Dean’s book and have some fun and to hell with the consequences.
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Dean never hears the bathroom door open over the rush of water so he’s more than surprised by the shock of cold air when Lexi opens the shower curtain. He raises his eyebrow as she slips in behind him. “What are you doing?”
“Taking a shower with you. Unless you want me to leave…” Lexi states with wide, innocent eyes before pulling him into a kiss. Dean returns her kiss eagerly, tasting the mint of her toothpaste. She pulls away before things get too heated, a slight smirk on her face, “I take it you want me to stay?”
“Yes.” Dean replies instantly.
“Ok, then I guess I’m staying.” Lexi says with a grin. She stands on tip toe, her hand sliding up the back of his neck while she draws his mouth to hers. She kisses Dean softly, her fingers slipping into his short hair.
“Hmm, my lucky day.” Dean whispers against her lips before going in for another kiss.
He moves forward, his hands clutch Lexi’s hips groping her ass while crushing her against him. Dean moves his hands up to cup her face, his thumb rubbing her cheek as he licks into her mouth. She returns the kiss parting her lips and moaning softly when his tongue slides against hers. Dean's hands slide up into her hair, his kisses becoming more urgent with each passing moment. He steps back suddenly panting.
Lexi groans when Dean breaks the kiss. She nips along his jaw up to his ear while she wraps a hand around his dick. He jerks in her grasp causing her to stop kissing along his neck. “You’re jumpy.” She says lightly.
“I’m just a little stressed.” She rubs her thumb in slow circles over the head of his cock causing him to jerk his hips groaning, “Damn Lex......”
“Guess, I’m gonna have to help you to relax.” She says with a wicked grin before sinking to her knees.
Dean swallows hard and opens his mouth to say something but the words die on his lips when Lexi flicks her tongue against the tip of his cock. She runs her tongue from root to tip dragging her tongue over the head of his cock and then turns her attention to the underside leaving him gaping silently.
He shifts his hips in an effort to get closer to the heat of her mouth. Lexi pulls back, the sudden rush of cold air hitting his cock making him want the heat of her mouth that much more. Lexi glances up at him and smiles. She’s holding him in front of her mouth, his tip mere centimeters from her lips. It’s taking all his self-control not to push himself past her lips and start fucking her mouth. Lexi rolls her fingers over his balls as she begins placing little fluttering licks to the tip that has Dean squirming in mere seconds. “Lexi…stop teasing…” he whines, he wants more contact, needs more contact, “you’re killing me here baby girl.”
Lexi flicks her eyes up to his finally taking him into her warm mouth. Dean breathes in sharply as she draws him into her mouth at a deliberately slow pace. He slides a hand into her hair, the other blindly grabbing for some purchase. Dean braces his left hand against the wet tile and focuses on the suction of Lexi’s mouth in an attempt to not getting over zealous and choke her. It takes all his self-control to not thrust into her mouth. Dean curses under his breath as she swirls her tongue around him working him in deeper and deeper.
“Lexi....” Dean whines while his eyes slide close.
Dean makes the mistake of opening his eyes to watch her. He reaches down, brushes her hair off her face and cups her jaw with his left hand. He moans low in his throat. The sight of her lips spread wide and moving over him, her mouth full of his cock is almost enough to send him over the edge. He fists his hand in her hair and starts to thrust shallowly into her mouth. Lexi welcomes the motion, hollows out her cheeks sucking harder and moans around him.
He bites down on his bottom lip when he hits the back of her throat. Lexi relaxes her throat and swallows. Her muscles contract and tense around him causing Dean to start to lose control. He thrusts faster, less coordinated, he’s teetering on the edge. Lexi moans around him again, the vibration of her throat going right through him. She does it again. Dean tightens his grip on her moaning her name as he comes hard and fast. He lets go of her hair, his body sagging, as she swallows and runs her tongue over the head of his cock one final time.
“Fuck, Lex,” Dean drawls as he reaches down to help her to her feet, “you got a talented mouth.”
Lexi smiles at him then places a soft kiss to his lips, “So, you say. I’ll leave you to your shower. I gotta get to class.” With that she gets out of the shower leaving Dean to stare at her retreating back.
Voodoo Tattoo
Frenchmen Street
New Orleans
Dean takes a deep breath as Jackie begins to add more color to his tattoo. It isn't so bad. In truth, the outline had been much worse. This is the final session for his Phoenix. Well really, it’s just to touch it up and add some more color and shading to make it really pop. Jackie pauses asking, “You want some music?”
“Sure.”
She turns the radio on then reminds Dean to let her know if he needs a break. She works in silence for about twenty minutes until Dean can't take it anymore. He clears his throat before saying, “So, I talked to Sammy.”
“Oh?”
“Everything cool with you two?” Dean asks trying to sound casual.
“Yeah. Why do you ask?”
“I dunno, he was acting strange.”
Jackie raises an eyebrow then says lightly, “Well, you Winchesters are a strange bunch.”
“Yeah, that ain’t no lie…”
“Lexi wasn’t kidding when she said you and Sam were night and day.” Jackie says with a chuckle. “But I think I’m finally getting him to loosen up. Don’t expect us back at the apartment tonight I plan on keeping him out all night.”
“Good luck with that, Sam’s a light weight.” Dean smirks.
640 Royal Street
New Orleans
Dean gets back to the apartment to find Lexi at the kitchen table. She has several text books and her notes spread out. She glances at him and smiles, “You were gone a long time. Did you eat?”
“Nope, I was at the tattoo parlor the whole time. I was gonna order some pizza.”
“Sounds good.” She closes her text book with a raised eyebrow. “Are you gonna show me the finished product or not?”
“Oh yeah.” Dean laughs before shrugging out of his button up. He pulls his t-shirt over his head and turns around.
“Wow. Dean, that's...”
He turns back around eyebrow raised. “You don't like it?”
“No,” she grins, “I love it. It's sexy as hell.”
Dean leans down pressing a kiss to her lips. “Oh yeah?”
“Oh yeah.” She nods. “By the way I saw that there’s a Clint Eastwood marathon on AMC tonight. You wanna hang out on the couch, watch the marathon and order some take out?”
“Yeah Baby doll, that’s exactly what I wanna do with you tonight.”
Once the pizza arrives, Dean goes into their bedroom stripping down to his boxers and t-shirt. He goes back out to the living room to find a six pack, napkins and the open pizza box on the steamer trunk they’re using as a make shift coffee table. He smiles at Lexi then goes to mess with the thermostat. Dean turns the a/c up and flicks the switch on for the ceiling fan. “It’s fucking hot in here.” He grumbles.
“It’s July in New Orleans.” Lexi shrugs. “What do you expect?”
“Aren’t you hot Lex?” Dean asks as he joins her on the couch.
“No, I’m comfortable.”
“You’re crazy.”
“So, I’ve been told…” She says with a laugh before turning on AMC. “Relax, babe, watch the movie, eat and have a beer.”
“Yeah, okay.”
Lexi spends more time watching Dean than she does the movies. She thinks it’s adorable how much he’s into the movies. Dean knows every line. He says them under his breath, his eyes all lit up. As much as she loves seeing Dean so happy and excited, by the end of the second movie, she’s bored. Instead of saying this, she gets up and stretches before cleaning up the coffee table. Once she has the trash thrown out and the left over pizza in the fridge, Lexi goes into their bedroom to change.
Lexi comes out of the bedroom a few minutes later wearing Dean’s favorite Led Zeppelin t-shirt and a pair of boy shorts. He turns to look at her taking in what she has on and grins, “You’re wearing my shirt…”
She crosses the room stopping in front of him. “I like wearing your shirts. I can take it off if you want…” She states lightly.
“You look so damn sexy in my shirt ya know that.” Dean says low and husky as he leans forward, hands clutching her hips to pull her between his knees.
Lexi begins carding her fingers through his short hair massaging his scalp. Dean closes his eyes and feels his body relax immediately. He leans into her touch letting a small moan escape his lips. Lexi sighs and continues to run her fingers through Dean’s hair while he pulls her shirt up slowly. Dean nuzzles his face against her stomach inhaling her scent, “God you smell so fucking good...I could eat you up.”
Lexi freezes and swallows hard, “What?”
“Said, I could eat you up.” Dean states before pressing kisses to her stomach. “I owe ya for this morning’s shower…”
Goosebumps race along her skin as Dean kisses and licks her stomach just above her panty line. He dips his tongue beneath the hem of her boy shorts causing Lexi to gasp and shiver. He smirks against her skin then moves lower kissing her right through her panties. Lexi’s fingers tighten in his hair and says his name in a breathy little moan. Dean knows he’s got her now.
Dean slides off the couch and onto his knees in one fluid motion. He clutches Lexi’s hips to tug her closer then runs his hands over her ass. He glances up at her smirking before lowering his mouth and swiftly sucking her clit right through her panties. She moans, fingers gripping his hair and Dean does it again. He runs his tongue along her stomach right above her panty line while Lexi begins to squirm. All she can think about is having Dean’s lips and tongue move down her body. It’s taking all her self-control to not push Dean’s face into her crotch. Just as these thoughts run through her mind, Dean slides his tongue under the top of her boy shorts. He suddenly bites down on the fabric and begins to pull off her boy shorts with his teeth.
“Dean…” Lexi gasps watching him with wide eyes. “What are you doing?”
He smirks up at her with mischievous eyes, “I want to taste you. Panties are in the way.”
She stares down at him whispering, “Jackie and Sam can come back at any minute.”
“Don’t worry about them Lexi, they ain’t coming back home for a while.”
Dean holds her gaze for a beat then smiles that shit eating grin of his. She's bare, freshly waxed and all he wants to do is run his tongue along her. He licks his lips, runs his hands down the outside of her thighs and then back up the insides of her legs before he pushes them apart. Dean leans forward, licks a broad strip along the length of her slit then moans low and dirty. “Hmm you taste so sweet baby girl.”
He places soft kisses down her slit causing Lexi to squirm impatiently. Dean takes his time. He runs his tongue around her folds then presses his tongue flat before licking another long strip up her slit. Lexi tightens hold of his short hair, her fingers gripping and yanking while he scraps his teeth over her clit.
Dean stops for a moment to nuzzle his face into Lexi. He breathes in her scent, she smells so good; musky and sweet. His nose is against her clit, his hands moving down the back of her legs. Lexi sways unsteadily while she feels him breathing in her scent. Her hands move down to grip his shoulders to steady herself. “Dean,” Lexi gasps, “please…”
Dean pulls back slightly, eyes flicking up to hers then wraps his lips around her clit. He moans low and dirty as he sucks, the vibrations going right through her. He runs his tongue around her folds biding his time until Lexi starts saying his name in that breathy moan of hers. Once she does Dean pushes his tongue inside her and starts licking her like there’s no tomorrow. He laps at her folds, running his tongue up and down the length of her slit with firm broad strokes. Lexi grinds against his mouth, the high whining noises coming from her making his cock throb with need.
He grazes his teeth along her clit then flicks his tongue against the bundle of nerves as Lexi whines, “Dean…oh God…” Dean wraps his lips around her clit, sucking gently. Her fingers are back in his hair tugging and pulling while she mumbles his name repeatedly. He moans low in his throat, the vibrations going right through her causing her to tremble.
“Dean, I think…” Lexi stammers, her fingers tightening in his hair. He pulls off her clit, licks up and down the length of her slit, his teeth and lips grazing over her clit every time. “Oh, God. Dean…” She whines, “I’m gonna cum…”
Dean tightens his grip on Lexi and pulls her flush to his mouth. He glides his lips and tongue over her before turning his attention to her clit. He wraps his lips around the bundle of nerves sucking hard and swirling his tongue until he's got her moaning and shaking. He feels her muscle tense, her finger nails digging into his scalp while she whimpers his name and a string of curses. Then he's licking her clean, drinking down all her juices as she rides out her orgasm.
Dean sits back on his heels, runs his hands down her legs and gazes up at her. Lexi’s eyes are closed, face flushed while she sways unsteadily trying to catch her breath. Dean licks his lips, the sight of her like this as she comes down from her orgasm captivating him. She’s the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen and now all he wants is to be inside her.
He stands up, hands resting on Lexi’s hips pulling her closer then bends down to kiss her. His kiss is demanding and dominate, full of want. Lexi relaxes in his arms letting him set the pace while she parts her lips for him. He slips his tongue into her mouth groaning as she bites down on his bottom lip.
Dean steps back pulling his t-shirt off and tossing it towards the couch. He grabs the hem of Lexi's shirt pulling it over her head and tossing it in the same direction while she shimmies his boxers off. He smirks when he sees that she's braless. Dean reaches out, hands slowly moving over her breasts and her stomach before he turns straddling the leather steamer trunk.
Dean grins at Lexi gesturing for her to join him. Once she’s close enough, Dean places a hand on each hip. He slides his hands down her legs and then pulls her left leg over his right and does the same with her other leg so that she's straddling his lap. Lexi drapes her arms loosely around his shoulders before she presses her lips to his.
He cups her face in his hands, his thumb rubbing her cheek as he licks into her mouth. Lexi returns the kiss parting her lips and moaning softly when his tongue slides against hers. Dean's hands slide up into her hair, his kisses becoming more urgent while his tongue explores every inch of her mouth until they're both panting. Dean pulls away suddenly with that little smirk on his face that Lexi thinks is adorable.
Dean wiggles his eyebrows at her before leaning forward and swirling is tongue over her nipple. He sucks it into his mouth causing her to make that desperate little moan he loves so much. He grins, turning his attention to her other nipple. Dean slides his tongue in a broad swipe over her right nipple while rolling and pinching her left nipple between his fingers. Smirking against her skin, he takes the nipple into his mouth, his teeth skimming against the hard bud then he slides his right hand between her legs, his fingers moving quickly to find her clit. He rubs her slowly until Lexi's moaning and grinding against his hand.
“Dean…” Lexi whimpers as he removes his hand from between her legs, “Why are you stopping?”
“Baby doll, I'm just getting started.” Dean whispers in her ear while he runs his hands up her legs.
Dean grips her hips and lifts her guiding down on his cock with a grunt. Lexi’s breath hitches, the feel of Dean filling her up still catching her by surprise. “Oh fuck…”
“You okay, Lex?”
“Yeah, I'm fine.”
She rests her hands on his shoulders leaning over him, her long brown hair falling against his face. Dean’s hands clutch her hips, his fingers digging into the soft flesh. He runs is tongue along his bottom lip, tangles one hand in her hair and draws her mouth to his. Dean kisses her slow and deep, his tongue grazing her bottom lip. Lexi moans into his kiss and rolls her hips slightly.
She nips at his jaw and begins sliding up and down his dick. His hands are restless, skimming over her skin as she moves on top of him. A sudden roll of her hips and Dean's biting down on his lip trying to stifle his moan. She smiles at him sliding a hand up the back of his neck, her fingers slipping into his short hair. “Oh fuck. That's it Lex, ride me just like that.” Dean grunts.
Dean braces his feet on the floor, tightens his grip on her hips and thrusts up into her as if it’s been years since he's last seen her. Lexi screams his name, back arching while her nails bite into his shoulders. He drives into her relentlessly, thrusting up into her on every down stroke. Lexi rolls her hips faster as Dean moves his hand between them to press against her clit. She closes her eyes and whimpers his name again while trying not to lose her rhythm. Dean knows she's close, he can feel a slight tremble in her legs.
Lexi’s body is an overwhelming feel of tingles leaving her light headed. Dean nips at the sensitive spot where her neck meets her shoulder while rubbing his fingers over her clit. Her breath is coming in short pants now as she clutches his shoulders to steady herself. She feels the muscles in her legs tighten suddenly while Dean continues to relentlessly drive into her. Lexi’s vision blurs and she breaks out into a light sweat. Everything around her disappears except for this hot, tingly sensation. She feels like she's being pulled from all sides, melting and exploding at the same time. A few more hard thrusts and she comes undone. Her orgasm slams right through her causing Lexi to make that high pitched moan that Dean loves so much.
“Fuck, Lex…” Dean moans as her walls clench around him.
He closes his eyes biting down on his bottom lip and groans. He tightens his grip on her hips driving into her harder, the way he likes it. Dean can feel the tension building steadily in his stomach, he knows he’s not going to last much longer. A few more hard thrusts and his hips begin to lose rhythm. He bites down on his lip, his body shaking while colors explode behind his eyes. “Oh fuck…” he groans as he comes hard and fast.
Dean rests his forehead against Lexi’s trying to catch his breath. He pulls away slightly staring at her with wide green eyes, a small smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. He presses his lips to Lexi’s soft and gentle before asking, “You okay Baby girl?”
“Yeah, I’m good.”
“You up for round two?” Dean asks with a smirk as he tightens his arms around her and stands up forcing her to wrap her legs around his waist.
“Hmm hmm but in our room.”
Dean smiles tilting his head, “Bedroom it is then.”
He carries her the short distance from the living room to their bedroom kissing her the whole way. He puts her down as soon as they cross into the bedroom, cups her face in his hands and kisses her with more urgency. She moans into the kiss parting her lips as his tongue trails across her bottom lip. Dean steps back breaking the kiss then laces his fingers through Lexi’s. He leans down kissing her neck before leading her over to the bed.
Dean lays down on the bed and gestures to Lexi to join him. She smiles slightly and then joins him on the bed. He kisses her softly sucking her bottom lip into his mouth before he pulls away. He stares at her for a beat, his eyes locking onto hers while his fingers brush her hair off her cheek tenderly. Dean feels the weight of her gaze causing him to suddenly feel vulnerable. He drops his eyes momentarily then looks back up at Lexi.
Lexi smiles at him sliding her hand between them to wrap around his dick. “Lexi…”
“Shh…” she replies cutting him off as she squeezes him.
He jerks into her hand, her thumb rubbing the head of his cock before she begins to stroke him. Lexi tilts her head up nipping at his chin then kissing along his jawline. Dean lets out a shaky breath while she makes her way down his throat placing little nips and kisses before licking the hollow of his throat.
She holds his dick firmly, feeling him harden as her fingers move along his shaft quickly.
Dean closes his eyes and digs his fingers into Lexi’s hip. He moans low in his throat thrusting into her hand. Lexi brushes her thumb against the head of his dick, squeezes and moves her hand faster. His breath hitches, he can feel the tension building steadily in his stomach. Lexi nips at the sensitive spot behind his ear, squeezing and tugging his dick as he grips her hips harder, then suddenly stops.
Dean stares at her with a ‘What the fuck?’ look. Lexi can’t help but smirk at his indignation and presses a light kiss to his lips before saying, “I was just getting you ready for round two but if you rather cum in my hand…”
“Yeah, no, wanna be inside of you baby girl. . .”
He wiggles his eyebrows causing her to laugh while he puts her leg up over his hip. Dean’s green eyes lock on to hers when he pushes slowly into Lexi. She bites down on her bottom lip her fingers digging into his biceps waiting for him to move. He brushes his lips against hers once more then begins to move slow and deep.
Dean sets up a slow, burn rhythm that has her arching her back and pressing her hips against his. There's no urgency this time. Dean wants to take his time. He wants to kiss, touch and feel all of her. His hands move all over her body, tracing every inch of skin and curve. His hands slide down to grasp her hips as they move together, pressing and pulling. He watches Lexi as her eyes flutter shut letting herself get lost in the feeling of them moving together.
Lexi opens her eyes and watches Dean's face contort in pleasure. She slides her hand up the back of his neck pulling him closer to catch his lips for another kiss. He pulls away letting his tongue trail over her bottom lip. He kisses along her jawline slowly while making his way up to her ear. Lexi feels her body tighten and tingle, her vision blurring while Dean continues to thrust into her. She clutches his biceps moaning his name as her orgasm hits her hard.
Dean feels the exact moment when he hits that sweet spot. He can feel the pressure building and building inside of him. He bites down on his lip pushing further into her knowing he's not going to last much longer himself. Moments later, his own orgasm slams into him. Dean closes his eyes, hips bucking, as he calls out her name. Dean rolls onto his back then reaches for Lexi. He wraps his arms around her pulling her against his chest. Lexi closes her eyes and relaxes in his arms, his warmth engulfing her. She nuzzles her face deeper into his neck inhaling his scent. Dean rubs her back whispering, “You know I love you, right Lex?”
“Hmm hmm, I know. I love you too.”
“I’m thinking…” Dean sighs while continuing to rub her back, “I think about us, ya know, normal and together…with kids. I came here to take a break from hunting, to decide what I really want. I know what I want. I’m gonna stop hunting and stay here. Ya know try to be normal with you. Unless you don’t want me to…”
Lexi smiles then kisses Dean softly, “Of course I want you to stay that was our plan after all.”
Dean holds her tighter against him then presses a kiss to the top of her head. Laying here in their bed, Dean knows he's home. He can't remember the last time he’s felt like that. With every fiber of his being, he knows this is where he belongs. He's going to have a life with Lexi, one that she deserves without monsters. A normal life is what they’re going to have together, with a job and friends, and a future where he doesn’t die bloody and alone. He knows he can make this work. He has to because now Dean can’t imagine a life without Lexi in it. The only thing standing in his way is his father. Dean knows that John’s gonna be angry and probably disown him like he did Sammy. But Dean is going to walkway from the life anyway. Sam’s right, their Mom wouldn’t have wanted this for them and revenge is not going to bring her back.