Restless Heart Syndrome Ch 15/?
Fic title: Restless Heart Syndrome
Genre: SPN Het
Pairing: Sam/ OFC, Dean/OFC (Lexi, played by Eliza Dushku)
Rating: M
Warnings/Spoilers: None
Summary: New town, new school for Sam. It's his fifth high school in three years but John promises it's going to be Sam' s last one. Dean and Sam settle into their new routine and enjoy being normal. A few months after school starts Sam meets Lexi. He could tell she was trouble the moment he laid eyes on her but it's the kind of trouble he's always wanted. Dean feels the same way about the new waitress at the diner.
*This is a prequel to Under Your Skin and Wayward Son.*
Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6 Chapter 7 Chapter 8 Chapter 9 Chapter 10 Chapter 11 Chapter 12 Chapter 13 Chapter 14
Chapter 15: Paper Lanterns
*Disclaimer: Any recognizable characters belong to kripke. It's his sandbox, I'm just playing with his characters.* This is a prequel to Under Your Skin and Wayward Son.
“So when are all my troubles going to end? I'm understanding now that we are only friends. To this day I'm asking why I still think about you.”
October 31, 2000
Dean's been having a really shitty day. The day started out bad from the moment he opened his eyes. He woke up late, the coffee maker broke and then he somehow messed up the brake line he was working on this morning. He never screws up on repairs but he's definitely off his game today. Dean thinks it has something to do with the fact that he hasn't been sleeping well. Not that he ever was a good sleeper. After what went down with Lexi three weeks ago, he can't get her out of his mind. He knows they dodged a major bullet but the guilt still weighs on him.
Dean goes to sit out back of the garage to push his thoughts out of his mind and to enjoying the warm fall day and his lunch when Joe Brennan joins him. Dean quirks his eyebrow knowing full well that this is not a friendly visit. Joe Brennan hated his guts. Not that Dean really cared whether the man liked him but he wasn't look to pick a fight with the guy either. Dean wiped his hands on his mechanic blues as he finished his burger and asked, “Something I can do for you Mr. Brennan?”
“Yes. I want you to break it off with my daughter.”
“And why would I do that? I like Lexi.”
“Because my daughter's a stupid teenage girl who thinks she's in love and you're too old for her.”
“Okay, Lexi is anything but stupid. You think she's gonna buy me breaking up with her now, after everything that just happened? She's gonna figure out you're behind it. It's not gonna stop her from seeing me. That girl is as stubborn as the day is long but I'm sure you already know that otherwise you wouldn't be asking me to dump her.”
“You're a cocky son of a bitch.”
“Whatever. “ Dean shrugged before turning to look Joe Brennan in the eye. “You don't like me that's fine. You wanna blame me for Lexi getting knocked up that's fine too but I wasn't the one pushing for sex. Ya know maybe if you let her off that short leash you have her on she wouldn't be doing shit to piss you off.”
“Oh, so I should let my daughter date a twenty one years old?”
“Would you be bitching if she was eighteen and I was twenty three?”
Joe Brennan glared at Dean and then sighed. He knew he was fighting a loosing battle. Lexi was going to do what she wanted to do no matter what he said. The truth was, Joe didn't think Dean was that bad of a guy for a hunter. What really worried Joe Brennan was that his daughter had no idea what a hunter was or of the dangers that went along with being with one. He didn't want Lexi involved in that world. And for that reason he disapproved. Since he knew Lexi wasn't about to break up with Dean, Joe would allow her to keep seeing him. Although, from now on, he was going to keep a close eye on Dean and the rest of the Winchesters.
“If you're gonna keep seeing Lexi I want her home at a decent hour. And I swear to God, if you break my little girl's heart, I'm gonna hunt you down and kill you.”
“Fair enough.”
Later that afternoon, Lexi sat on the bench outside the diner waiting for Dean to pick her up. Three weeks had passed since she miscarried; two weeks since she moved back home. Things were still tense between her and her father. She avoided him the best she could by spending as much time with Dean as possible. She didn't want to go home, she hated being in that house and the only thing she thought about these days was graduating. She couldn't wait to get far away from Ashland. The only downside to leaving was that Dean wouldn't be coming with her but she was determined to change that.
She heard the Impala before she saw it, the sound of it's engine making her smile. She slid into the passenger's seat once Dean pulled up to the curb, then pressed him a quick kiss to his lips before settling into the leather seat. He gave her knee a squeeze and asked with his eyebrow cocked, “Where's your costume? I thought Halloween was your favorite holiday.”
“It is. I just didn't feel like getting dressed up this year. Where's your costume?”
“Oh, Sweetheart,” Dean drawled while trailing his fingers up her thigh, “I don't do costumes.”
Lexi couldn't help but shake her head despite the smile that was on her face. “You're too much Dean Winchester, ya know that?”
Dean didn't bother to reply. Instead he threw her his best smile before driving them straight back to his house. At the moment, the plan was to stay in, order some pizza and watch a Halloween movie marathon. Given that Halloween was always a slow night for the supernatural, Dean was more than okay with spending the night in with Lexi. He was worried about her. She hadn't been herself since the miscarriage even though she tried to put on a good show. Dean wanted to help her but he's always had a hard time talking about feelings whether they be his or someone else's. There was one thing Dean knew for certain, he was going to stay by her side like glue. There was absolutely no way she was getting rid of him now.
“Lex, you sure you don't wanna go to the bar or something?” Dean asked as he pulled the Impala in the drive way. “We can uh go to Paige's party if ya want. Hell, I'll even wear a costume.”
“No, it's alright. I'd rather stay in with you and hand out candy.”
“If you're sure, babe. I mean we can do whatever you want.”
“I'm sure, Dean.” Lexi smiled at him before pressing a quick kiss to his lips. Watching horror movies and cuddling up on the couch with Dean was exactly how Lexi wanted to spend Halloween. “I just wanna hang out with you.”
Once they got some drinks and the popcorn made, Lexi tucked herself into Dean's side resting her head on his shoulder as she settled in for the marathon. She knew she was being clingy but at the moment she really didn't care. All she wanted lately was to be close to Dean. His presence made her feel safe, calm and protected. Plus with everything that has happened in the last month, she needed that feeling of comfort that she only got when she was with him.
Dean kissed the side of her head while throwing his arm around her waist to tug her closer. He had to admit this was good. Actually, this was more than good, it was awesome. He'd much rather hang out with her on the couch watching bad movies than go out. Dean never thought he'd actually prefer to stay home let alone have a girlfriend but here he was. He smiled to himself, gave Lexi a slight squeeze and grabbed the bowl of popcorn. Yeah, living an apple pie life wasn't so bad after all.
About half way through the marathon Lexi turned to Dean while worrying her bottom lip between teeth. “Hey, Dean you know how I said I wanted to go to college in New Orleans?”
“Yeah, you wanted to go to Loyola right?”
“Yeah. Um what do you think about going with me?” She twisted a strand of hair around her finger as she looked at Dean with wide eyes. “We could get an apartment together.”
“Lex, I would love to go down there with you but my dad needs me.”
“Well, what's stopping you from living in New Orleans and going on hunts with your dad? New Orleans could be your home base and I'm sure there's plenty of things you can hunt down there.”
“Uh. Never thought of that.” Dean tilted his head to the side and cocked his eyebrow. “I mean, I guess it could work but I'm gonna have to talk to my dad about it.”
“Okay and not to sound all clingy but I really want you to come with me. I don't wanna do the long distance thing, I wanna be with you.”
“I wanna be with you too baby girl.” Dean slipped his arm around her waist and tugged her even closer. “We got plenty of time to figure it out. Why don't we just sit here and watch some movies, hmm?”
“Sounds good to me.”
Dean smiled as he reached for the bowl of popcorn. He didn't want to think about what was going to happen once Lexi went off to college. They had a good ten months before her first semester and right now he wanted to live in the moment with her. Although, the thought of him taking off with her next fall kept creeping up in his mind. He thought about it while at work; he's even been dreaming about it. Part of Dean wants to break away from his dad and Sammy. He wants to have his own life but he knows his dad needs him. They need to find the thing that killed Mom and then maybe Dean could finally be free to do his own thing.
Dean's never thought seriously about his future. He thought about being a mechanic or a fire fighter but he never pursued them because his father needed him. He dropped out of high school; put his hopes and dreams on hold to go into the family business because he thought that's what a good son would do. Dean's not that sure anymore. After five months of dating Lexi, he's starting to think that maybe Sam has a point, that maybe him and Sam can live normal apple pie lives. He wants that life with her. He wants to fall asleep with her in his arms and wake up with her every morning. That life with Lexi is so close that Dean can practically taste it.
November 1, 2000
Sam wished he could be more like his older brother. He wished he was good with girls like his brother but Sam wasn't even good with his own girlfriend. He was awkward and shy, he had nowhere near Dean's ability to charm a girl. Which was more than apparent last night thanks to the thin wall they now shared. The noises Dean was pulling out of Lexi were downright pornographic. Sam's never heard a girl make those sounds in real life, the closest he's gotten is when watching Casa Erotica on pay per view. He really wants to know what the hell Dean was doing to Lexi to get her to moan his name like that but he's too embarrassed to ask. If he did ask Dean, then he'd have to admit that he's still a virgin. That's something he doesn't want his older brother to know. It's bad enough admitting that he's only gotten to second base with Paige.
Sam wished he could be happy go lucky like his brother. Things just seemed to roll right off Dean's back but not Sam's. Sam, was miserable. Even with staying in Ashland for the past year has not made him happy. For the first time in his life Sam Winchester has friends and a stable routine. It's everything that he's ever wanted but being here for so long has made him even more aware about how different his family really is. He's still on the outside looking in.
Sam looked down into his bowl of cereal and sighed. He didn't know why his life had to suck so hard. Here he was with a girlfriend and he still wasn't happy. There wasn't anything wrong with Paige. She was pretty, funny and smart. She wasn't Lexi though. For some reason, Sam was still hung up on her. He dreams about her and the dreams he had of her last night were definitely not PG. He understands that him and Lexi are only friends but he can't stop thinking about her. Even when Sam's with Paige he's imagining it's Lexi that's kissing him. It kills him everyday to see her with Dean. Actually, Sam thinks that one of the reasons why he's now so miserable living in Ashland.
He does see the light at the end of the tunnel though. That light is college. Sitting in his room at night, he's been secretly applying to colleges. Lexi got him a part time job at the diner as a waiter and he's been using his tip money to pay the application fees. The rest of the money he is saving for living expenses. Sam is also preparing for telling his father he's going to college. He doesn't know exactly how he's going to break the news to John. All Sam does know, is that it's not going to go over well.
Sam wants to be free. He wants to be free from his father and his obsession over finding the thing that killed his mom. It's been seventeen years. Nothing is going to bring her back or fill the whole she left in their lives. Not even killing the thing. Sure, they'll have a moment of satisfaction but Sam knows that's all it will be. He's never said these things out loud. He wishes he could, especially to Dean. He wants Dean to see there's more to life than hunting; that Dean could live a normal life. He wants his older brother to be genuinely happy. Sam sees glimpses of that happiness when Dean's with Lexi. And because of that Sam will suffer in silence. He knows he can't let Dean know how miserable he is over the Lexi thing. If Dean knew he'd sacrifice his own happiness for Sam. Sam won't let that happen. He wishes that Dean would be selfish for once and put himself first. Dean's always taken care of him and Dad putting their well being over his own. Sam thinks it's time for his older brother to break away too. But convincing him of that, well, it's not going to be easy.
Genre: SPN Het
Pairing: Sam/ OFC, Dean/OFC (Lexi, played by Eliza Dushku)
Rating: M
Warnings/Spoilers: None
Summary: New town, new school for Sam. It's his fifth high school in three years but John promises it's going to be Sam' s last one. Dean and Sam settle into their new routine and enjoy being normal. A few months after school starts Sam meets Lexi. He could tell she was trouble the moment he laid eyes on her but it's the kind of trouble he's always wanted. Dean feels the same way about the new waitress at the diner.
*This is a prequel to Under Your Skin and Wayward Son.*
Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6 Chapter 7 Chapter 8 Chapter 9 Chapter 10 Chapter 11 Chapter 12 Chapter 13 Chapter 14
Chapter 15: Paper Lanterns
*Disclaimer: Any recognizable characters belong to kripke. It's his sandbox, I'm just playing with his characters.* This is a prequel to Under Your Skin and Wayward Son.
“So when are all my troubles going to end? I'm understanding now that we are only friends. To this day I'm asking why I still think about you.”
October 31, 2000
Dean's been having a really shitty day. The day started out bad from the moment he opened his eyes. He woke up late, the coffee maker broke and then he somehow messed up the brake line he was working on this morning. He never screws up on repairs but he's definitely off his game today. Dean thinks it has something to do with the fact that he hasn't been sleeping well. Not that he ever was a good sleeper. After what went down with Lexi three weeks ago, he can't get her out of his mind. He knows they dodged a major bullet but the guilt still weighs on him.
Dean goes to sit out back of the garage to push his thoughts out of his mind and to enjoying the warm fall day and his lunch when Joe Brennan joins him. Dean quirks his eyebrow knowing full well that this is not a friendly visit. Joe Brennan hated his guts. Not that Dean really cared whether the man liked him but he wasn't look to pick a fight with the guy either. Dean wiped his hands on his mechanic blues as he finished his burger and asked, “Something I can do for you Mr. Brennan?”
“Yes. I want you to break it off with my daughter.”
“And why would I do that? I like Lexi.”
“Because my daughter's a stupid teenage girl who thinks she's in love and you're too old for her.”
“Okay, Lexi is anything but stupid. You think she's gonna buy me breaking up with her now, after everything that just happened? She's gonna figure out you're behind it. It's not gonna stop her from seeing me. That girl is as stubborn as the day is long but I'm sure you already know that otherwise you wouldn't be asking me to dump her.”
“You're a cocky son of a bitch.”
“Whatever. “ Dean shrugged before turning to look Joe Brennan in the eye. “You don't like me that's fine. You wanna blame me for Lexi getting knocked up that's fine too but I wasn't the one pushing for sex. Ya know maybe if you let her off that short leash you have her on she wouldn't be doing shit to piss you off.”
“Oh, so I should let my daughter date a twenty one years old?”
“Would you be bitching if she was eighteen and I was twenty three?”
Joe Brennan glared at Dean and then sighed. He knew he was fighting a loosing battle. Lexi was going to do what she wanted to do no matter what he said. The truth was, Joe didn't think Dean was that bad of a guy for a hunter. What really worried Joe Brennan was that his daughter had no idea what a hunter was or of the dangers that went along with being with one. He didn't want Lexi involved in that world. And for that reason he disapproved. Since he knew Lexi wasn't about to break up with Dean, Joe would allow her to keep seeing him. Although, from now on, he was going to keep a close eye on Dean and the rest of the Winchesters.
“If you're gonna keep seeing Lexi I want her home at a decent hour. And I swear to God, if you break my little girl's heart, I'm gonna hunt you down and kill you.”
“Fair enough.”
Later that afternoon, Lexi sat on the bench outside the diner waiting for Dean to pick her up. Three weeks had passed since she miscarried; two weeks since she moved back home. Things were still tense between her and her father. She avoided him the best she could by spending as much time with Dean as possible. She didn't want to go home, she hated being in that house and the only thing she thought about these days was graduating. She couldn't wait to get far away from Ashland. The only downside to leaving was that Dean wouldn't be coming with her but she was determined to change that.
She heard the Impala before she saw it, the sound of it's engine making her smile. She slid into the passenger's seat once Dean pulled up to the curb, then pressed him a quick kiss to his lips before settling into the leather seat. He gave her knee a squeeze and asked with his eyebrow cocked, “Where's your costume? I thought Halloween was your favorite holiday.”
“It is. I just didn't feel like getting dressed up this year. Where's your costume?”
“Oh, Sweetheart,” Dean drawled while trailing his fingers up her thigh, “I don't do costumes.”
Lexi couldn't help but shake her head despite the smile that was on her face. “You're too much Dean Winchester, ya know that?”
Dean didn't bother to reply. Instead he threw her his best smile before driving them straight back to his house. At the moment, the plan was to stay in, order some pizza and watch a Halloween movie marathon. Given that Halloween was always a slow night for the supernatural, Dean was more than okay with spending the night in with Lexi. He was worried about her. She hadn't been herself since the miscarriage even though she tried to put on a good show. Dean wanted to help her but he's always had a hard time talking about feelings whether they be his or someone else's. There was one thing Dean knew for certain, he was going to stay by her side like glue. There was absolutely no way she was getting rid of him now.
“Lex, you sure you don't wanna go to the bar or something?” Dean asked as he pulled the Impala in the drive way. “We can uh go to Paige's party if ya want. Hell, I'll even wear a costume.”
“No, it's alright. I'd rather stay in with you and hand out candy.”
“If you're sure, babe. I mean we can do whatever you want.”
“I'm sure, Dean.” Lexi smiled at him before pressing a quick kiss to his lips. Watching horror movies and cuddling up on the couch with Dean was exactly how Lexi wanted to spend Halloween. “I just wanna hang out with you.”
Once they got some drinks and the popcorn made, Lexi tucked herself into Dean's side resting her head on his shoulder as she settled in for the marathon. She knew she was being clingy but at the moment she really didn't care. All she wanted lately was to be close to Dean. His presence made her feel safe, calm and protected. Plus with everything that has happened in the last month, she needed that feeling of comfort that she only got when she was with him.
Dean kissed the side of her head while throwing his arm around her waist to tug her closer. He had to admit this was good. Actually, this was more than good, it was awesome. He'd much rather hang out with her on the couch watching bad movies than go out. Dean never thought he'd actually prefer to stay home let alone have a girlfriend but here he was. He smiled to himself, gave Lexi a slight squeeze and grabbed the bowl of popcorn. Yeah, living an apple pie life wasn't so bad after all.
About half way through the marathon Lexi turned to Dean while worrying her bottom lip between teeth. “Hey, Dean you know how I said I wanted to go to college in New Orleans?”
“Yeah, you wanted to go to Loyola right?”
“Yeah. Um what do you think about going with me?” She twisted a strand of hair around her finger as she looked at Dean with wide eyes. “We could get an apartment together.”
“Lex, I would love to go down there with you but my dad needs me.”
“Well, what's stopping you from living in New Orleans and going on hunts with your dad? New Orleans could be your home base and I'm sure there's plenty of things you can hunt down there.”
“Uh. Never thought of that.” Dean tilted his head to the side and cocked his eyebrow. “I mean, I guess it could work but I'm gonna have to talk to my dad about it.”
“Okay and not to sound all clingy but I really want you to come with me. I don't wanna do the long distance thing, I wanna be with you.”
“I wanna be with you too baby girl.” Dean slipped his arm around her waist and tugged her even closer. “We got plenty of time to figure it out. Why don't we just sit here and watch some movies, hmm?”
“Sounds good to me.”
Dean smiled as he reached for the bowl of popcorn. He didn't want to think about what was going to happen once Lexi went off to college. They had a good ten months before her first semester and right now he wanted to live in the moment with her. Although, the thought of him taking off with her next fall kept creeping up in his mind. He thought about it while at work; he's even been dreaming about it. Part of Dean wants to break away from his dad and Sammy. He wants to have his own life but he knows his dad needs him. They need to find the thing that killed Mom and then maybe Dean could finally be free to do his own thing.
Dean's never thought seriously about his future. He thought about being a mechanic or a fire fighter but he never pursued them because his father needed him. He dropped out of high school; put his hopes and dreams on hold to go into the family business because he thought that's what a good son would do. Dean's not that sure anymore. After five months of dating Lexi, he's starting to think that maybe Sam has a point, that maybe him and Sam can live normal apple pie lives. He wants that life with her. He wants to fall asleep with her in his arms and wake up with her every morning. That life with Lexi is so close that Dean can practically taste it.
November 1, 2000
Sam wished he could be more like his older brother. He wished he was good with girls like his brother but Sam wasn't even good with his own girlfriend. He was awkward and shy, he had nowhere near Dean's ability to charm a girl. Which was more than apparent last night thanks to the thin wall they now shared. The noises Dean was pulling out of Lexi were downright pornographic. Sam's never heard a girl make those sounds in real life, the closest he's gotten is when watching Casa Erotica on pay per view. He really wants to know what the hell Dean was doing to Lexi to get her to moan his name like that but he's too embarrassed to ask. If he did ask Dean, then he'd have to admit that he's still a virgin. That's something he doesn't want his older brother to know. It's bad enough admitting that he's only gotten to second base with Paige.
Sam wished he could be happy go lucky like his brother. Things just seemed to roll right off Dean's back but not Sam's. Sam, was miserable. Even with staying in Ashland for the past year has not made him happy. For the first time in his life Sam Winchester has friends and a stable routine. It's everything that he's ever wanted but being here for so long has made him even more aware about how different his family really is. He's still on the outside looking in.
Sam looked down into his bowl of cereal and sighed. He didn't know why his life had to suck so hard. Here he was with a girlfriend and he still wasn't happy. There wasn't anything wrong with Paige. She was pretty, funny and smart. She wasn't Lexi though. For some reason, Sam was still hung up on her. He dreams about her and the dreams he had of her last night were definitely not PG. He understands that him and Lexi are only friends but he can't stop thinking about her. Even when Sam's with Paige he's imagining it's Lexi that's kissing him. It kills him everyday to see her with Dean. Actually, Sam thinks that one of the reasons why he's now so miserable living in Ashland.
He does see the light at the end of the tunnel though. That light is college. Sitting in his room at night, he's been secretly applying to colleges. Lexi got him a part time job at the diner as a waiter and he's been using his tip money to pay the application fees. The rest of the money he is saving for living expenses. Sam is also preparing for telling his father he's going to college. He doesn't know exactly how he's going to break the news to John. All Sam does know, is that it's not going to go over well.
Sam wants to be free. He wants to be free from his father and his obsession over finding the thing that killed his mom. It's been seventeen years. Nothing is going to bring her back or fill the whole she left in their lives. Not even killing the thing. Sure, they'll have a moment of satisfaction but Sam knows that's all it will be. He's never said these things out loud. He wishes he could, especially to Dean. He wants Dean to see there's more to life than hunting; that Dean could live a normal life. He wants his older brother to be genuinely happy. Sam sees glimpses of that happiness when Dean's with Lexi. And because of that Sam will suffer in silence. He knows he can't let Dean know how miserable he is over the Lexi thing. If Dean knew he'd sacrifice his own happiness for Sam. Sam won't let that happen. He wishes that Dean would be selfish for once and put himself first. Dean's always taken care of him and Dad putting their well being over his own. Sam thinks it's time for his older brother to break away too. But convincing him of that, well, it's not going to be easy.