Restless Heart Syndrome Ch 14/?
Fic title: Restless Heart Syndrome
Genre: SPN Het
Pairing: Sam/ OFC, Dean/OFC (Lexi, played by Eliza Dushku)
Rating: M
Warnings/Spoilers: None
Summary: New town, new school for Sam. It's his fifth high school in three years but John promises it's going to be Sam' s last one. Dean and Sam settle into their new routine and enjoy being normal. A few months after school starts Sam meets Lexi. He could tell she was trouble the moment he laid eyes on her but it's the kind of trouble he's always wanted. Dean feels the same way about the new waitress at the diner.
*This is a prequel to Under Your Skin and Wayward Son.*
Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6 Chapter 7 Chapter 8 Chapter 9 Chapter 10 Chapter 11 Chapter 12 Chapter 13
Chapter 14: Do Da Da
*Disclaimer: Any recognizable characters belong to kripke. It's his sandbox, I'm just playing with his characters.* This is a prequel to Under Your Skin and Wayward Son.
“Every time I'm falling down you take the repercussions. Headaches and anxieties advancing my frustrations. Rush in to my depression, sacrifice everything. Waste with me into nothing. Well now you're stuck with me.”
Dean was sitting out on the back porch of the house alone. Sam was more than shocked when his older brother handed him the keys to the Impala to take Paige out. Dean didn't think twice when he tossed Sammy the keys. He needed his younger brother out of the house and Paige was the perfect distraction. Dean wouldn't need to answer Sam's questions on why Lexi was still here or why she was asleep in Dean's bedroom. Plus, Dean really needed the quiet to think.
Dean pulled his leather jacket closed and sat back in the rusted lawn chair. It was late September but the nights were already getting cold. He didn't mind the cold though. Actually, Dean kind of liked it. He took a pack of Camels out of his pocket tapping it against the palm of his hand before fishing in his jacket for his zippo. He flicked it open and lit a cigarette taking a long drag. Dean closed his eyes and exhaled. He knows he should quit smoking but with the last two days he's had he thinks he deserves this. Truth is, he's cut back since his dad found out about him smoking. Dean was able to hide that little tidbit about himself up until a few weeks ago. He had been smoking since he was sixteen. At first, he used to steal one or two cigarettes out of his father's pack and John never suspected anything. Then, a few weeks ago he stopped by the garage to see Dean. His father found him under the hood of an old Ford with a cigarette between his lips. John's been on his ass about quitting ever since.
After finishing off a six pack and half as many cigarettes, Dean slid into bed next to Lexi careful not to wake her. She immediately snuggled up to his side, her face nuzzling into the crook of his neck. Dean wrapped his arms around her and closed his eyes. It had been two days since they found out she was knocked up. The whole time Dean's been going over in his head the pros and cons of keeping the baby. He doesn't want to pressure her into anything but he knows whatever they decide will have huge consequences. Dean only knows one thing for certain, no matter what Lexi chooses to do, he's going to back it.
The truth is, Dean's not afraid to step up. He's taken care of Sam his whole life, so he's pretty confident he can take care of Lexi and their kid. The thing that Dean's afraid of is, how his father is going to react. He figures there's going to be a lot of yelling involved with the possibility of Dean going is own way. That scares him too but it could be a way out of hunting, a way to a normal life. Although, Dean barely remembers living a normal life and he doesn't know if he ever can. He knows he can get a real job and a place for them to live. A house, he'd find them a house with a back yard. That would be the easy part. He could put on a good show, pretend he's normal, but Dean doesn't know if he'd be able to forget what's out there in the dark. Could he ignore the fact that people were dying? People he could help.
“Are you awake?” Lexi mumbled into his neck a few minutes later interrupting his thoughts.
“Yeah. I thought you were asleep.”
“I can't sleep.” She pulled slightly back from Dean and propped up on her elbow. “I just keep thinking about what we're going to do.”
“What do you wanna do, Lex?”
“I don't know. Part of me...I mean, I don't think I can go nine months and then give the baby up for adoption. I'd always be wondering what happened to them...”
“Yeah, I couldn't do that either.” Dean sighed and ran a hand down his face before continuing. “So, adoptions off the table. That leaves us with two choices. Keep it or...”
“I don't...”
Dean gathered Lexi up in his arms and gave her a little squeeze. “It's okay, Lex. We don't have to decide right this second. We still got time. Why don't we try and get some sleep, uh?”
“Okay.”
Three Days Later
Dean peeled the label off his bottle of beer as he waited alone at the bar. He couldn't help but be anxious. His father would be walking through that door at any minute and then the shit was gonna hit the fan. Dean finished off his beer just as John entered the bar. He took the stool next to his son and ordered them each a beer. John waited until they had their drinks before asking, “You wanna tell me why you wanted to talk to me here and not at the house?”
“Cuz I need to tell you something that I don't want Sammy to know about.”
John to a long pull off his beer then turned to look at Dean. “Are you gonna tell me what's going on, Son?”
Dean bit down on his bottom lip trying to muster up some courage. At the moment he'd rather take on a werewolf with his bare hands then talk to his dad. Dean looked at his dad and blurted out, “Lexi's knocked up.”
“What? Dean, how could you be so careless?”
“I wasn't...the condom broke. But there's um more...”
“More?”
“Yeah. Her asshole father found the pregnancy test and threw her out. She's been staying at the house, she had no where else to go. Dad, if you don't want Lexi there that's fine. I'll go find us our own place.”
“She can stay.”
“What about your no attachments rule?” Dean looked at his dad with wide eyes not bothering to hide his shock. “You're not gonna yell?”
“It seems pointless now, don't ya think? I told you to break it off before you got attached. You didn't listen. Told ya not to knock her up and you did. You made your bed, son. Now you gotta lie in it.”
With that said John laid a ten dollar bill on the bar and walked out. Dean stared at his father's retreating back not knowing what to think. This was not how he pictured their conversation ending. He didn't think his father would be so calm. He expected one of John's angry rants about no attachments and for disobeying orders. Dean finished off his beer telling himself not to look a gift horse in the mouth, he had enough to worry about.
October 6, 2000
Lexi entered the living room to find Dean sitting on the couch with head phones on and his eyes closed. She walked over to him placing her hand on his shoulder. He opened his eyes and took off his head phones asking, “Something wrong, Lex?”
She bit down on her bottom lip before joining Dean on the couch. Lexi ran her hands through her hair taking a deep breath. She knew she needed to tell Dean her decision, she just hoped he wouldn't hate her when it was all said and done. “Dean, I know what I want to do. I'm not...I'm not going to have the baby. Please, don't hate me.”
“I don't hate you, Lex. If that's what you want to do then make the appointment and I'll go with you.”
“You will?”
“Of course.” Dean sat up straight and looked at her his eyebrows inching up into his hair line. “You didn't think I'd let you go by yourself, did you?”
Lexi shook her head no while sighing. It wasn't that she didn't think he would go with her, it was the situation they were now in. It had her twisted in knots making her feel like she was all alone. “I...you're a good guy, Dean.”
“Ah, that's only cuz I'm sweet on you.” Lexi smiled at him, it was the first time he's seen her smile in days. He grinned back at her as he inched closer to her. “I missed that smile of yours.”
“Yeah, well...”
“Why don't we go out, uh? You haven't left the house except to go to school since I brought you here last Thursday night.”
“Okay. I could really go for some Chinese.”
Dean smiled at her, then pressed a kiss to her temple. “Chinese it is then.”
October 8, 2000
Dean sat in the emergency room with his head in his hands. He hated waiting. He had been sitting here for at least an hour now. He had no idea what was going on with her, the not knowing was driving him crazy. No one was telling him anything. All he knew was that Lexi woke up with severe pains in her stomach. That's how they ended up here. When they arrived, the emergency room staff had rushed Lexi into an exam room and left him behind to fill out paperwork. He's been sitting here alone ever since. He probably should've brought Sam with him. At least he wouldn't be waiting this out by himself.
It was almost two hours before a doctor came to talk to him. Dean barely registered what she was saying. All he heard was, 'She lost the baby.', everything after that sounded fuzzy and far away. Dean looked down at the doctor and asked, “Can I see Lexi now?”
“Of course, follow me.”
Dean followed her silently as they made their way to Lexi's room. He was trying to make sense of what he was feeling. Part of Dean felt relief that the decision was taken out of their hands, the other part of him was sad. He didn't know why he felt this sudden sadness. He wasn't ready to be someone's father but knowing the baby was gone...it hurt.
Dean stopped outside of Lexi's room and shook his head. He didn't know what he was going to say to her. How could he when he didn't understand what he was feeling himself? It didn't matter though, he had to put on a brave face for Lexi. Dean took a deep breath to steady himself and plastered a smile on his face as he walked into her room, “Hey, Lex, how you feeling?”
“Alright, I guess. Did you talk to the doctor?”
“Yeah,” Dean nodded while sitting on the vinyl chair next to her bed. He reached for her hand, laced his fingers through hers and squeezed. “you're gonna be fine. She said they're gonna do a D & C in the morning and if everything goes ok you'll be released in the afternoon.”
“Dean, I... please, don't go.”
Dean got out of the chair and sat next to Lexi on her bed. He wrapped his arm around her shoulders as he rested his head against hers. Lexi shifted to give Dean more room on the bed and yawned. “Lex, you're exhausted. Why don't you humor me and go to sleep? I ain't going anywhere. I'm staying right here with you. You're stuck with me.”
Lexi nodded and within minutes she was fast asleep, her head resting against Dean's shoulder.
The quiet didn't last long. In less than an hour, the peacefulness in the room was gone. Dean didn't think the night could get any worse but it did with the arrival of Lexi's parents. The sound of her father's voice was echoing up the hallway and getting louder by the moment. Lexi sat up in bed looking towards the door with wide fright filled eyes. “Dean, I don't want them here.”
“I'll take care of it.”
Dean went out into the hallway with the sole purpose of keeping Lexi's parents from entering her room. He stood in front of Lexi's door arms crossed. If her father wanted into the room he would have to get through Dean to do it. There was no way Dean was going to let that happen. He loomed over her father, eyes hard. “What the hell are you doing here?”
“We're here to see our daughter.”
“Your daughter? You mean the one you threw out on the street cuz she was pregnant?” Dean growled while clenching his fists.
Marianne Brennan looked from her husband to Dean not bothering to hide her shock. “What?”
“You didn't know? You mean Joe here didn't tell you I knocked his little angel up?”
“No! He told me they got into a fight and she took off with you. I've been calling her for a week but she hasn't returned any of my calls.”
Dean looked at Joe Brennan, eyebrow cocked. “That's real nice man. You kick your sixteen year old daughter out and then lie to your wife about it. And you got the balls to say I'm the asshole.”
“Dean,” Marianne said placing her hand on his arm. “what's going on? The hospital only told us she was here.”
“Lexi's okay but she lost the baby. And, she doesn't want to see you right now.”
“How do you know that?” Lexi's father barked at Dean.
“Because,” Dean hissed, “she told me not to let you in her room.”
“Like hell!”
Dean stepped in front of her father and glared down at him. “You're not going in there and upsetting her. I'm not gonna let that happen.”
“OH you're not gonna let that happen, uh?”
“I'm not. She doesn't need your bullshit.” Dean turned towards Marianne speaking in a softer tone, “I'll tell Lexi you didn't know what was going on and have her call you, okay?”
“Okay. Keep an eye on her for me, Dean.”
“I will.”
Dean watched Marianne Brennan drag her husband down the hall before going back into Lexi's room. He would've felt sorry for Joe Brennan getting his ass chewed out by his wife if he wasn't such an asshole. But Dean knew whatever Marianne said wouldn't make a difference. Joe Brennan was still going to give him and Lexi a hard time. He didn't like Dean from the moment he laid eyes on him and nothing was going to change that.
Genre: SPN Het
Pairing: Sam/ OFC, Dean/OFC (Lexi, played by Eliza Dushku)
Rating: M
Warnings/Spoilers: None
Summary: New town, new school for Sam. It's his fifth high school in three years but John promises it's going to be Sam' s last one. Dean and Sam settle into their new routine and enjoy being normal. A few months after school starts Sam meets Lexi. He could tell she was trouble the moment he laid eyes on her but it's the kind of trouble he's always wanted. Dean feels the same way about the new waitress at the diner.
*This is a prequel to Under Your Skin and Wayward Son.*
Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6 Chapter 7 Chapter 8 Chapter 9 Chapter 10 Chapter 11 Chapter 12 Chapter 13
Chapter 14: Do Da Da
*Disclaimer: Any recognizable characters belong to kripke. It's his sandbox, I'm just playing with his characters.* This is a prequel to Under Your Skin and Wayward Son.
“Every time I'm falling down you take the repercussions. Headaches and anxieties advancing my frustrations. Rush in to my depression, sacrifice everything. Waste with me into nothing. Well now you're stuck with me.”
Dean was sitting out on the back porch of the house alone. Sam was more than shocked when his older brother handed him the keys to the Impala to take Paige out. Dean didn't think twice when he tossed Sammy the keys. He needed his younger brother out of the house and Paige was the perfect distraction. Dean wouldn't need to answer Sam's questions on why Lexi was still here or why she was asleep in Dean's bedroom. Plus, Dean really needed the quiet to think.
Dean pulled his leather jacket closed and sat back in the rusted lawn chair. It was late September but the nights were already getting cold. He didn't mind the cold though. Actually, Dean kind of liked it. He took a pack of Camels out of his pocket tapping it against the palm of his hand before fishing in his jacket for his zippo. He flicked it open and lit a cigarette taking a long drag. Dean closed his eyes and exhaled. He knows he should quit smoking but with the last two days he's had he thinks he deserves this. Truth is, he's cut back since his dad found out about him smoking. Dean was able to hide that little tidbit about himself up until a few weeks ago. He had been smoking since he was sixteen. At first, he used to steal one or two cigarettes out of his father's pack and John never suspected anything. Then, a few weeks ago he stopped by the garage to see Dean. His father found him under the hood of an old Ford with a cigarette between his lips. John's been on his ass about quitting ever since.
After finishing off a six pack and half as many cigarettes, Dean slid into bed next to Lexi careful not to wake her. She immediately snuggled up to his side, her face nuzzling into the crook of his neck. Dean wrapped his arms around her and closed his eyes. It had been two days since they found out she was knocked up. The whole time Dean's been going over in his head the pros and cons of keeping the baby. He doesn't want to pressure her into anything but he knows whatever they decide will have huge consequences. Dean only knows one thing for certain, no matter what Lexi chooses to do, he's going to back it.
The truth is, Dean's not afraid to step up. He's taken care of Sam his whole life, so he's pretty confident he can take care of Lexi and their kid. The thing that Dean's afraid of is, how his father is going to react. He figures there's going to be a lot of yelling involved with the possibility of Dean going is own way. That scares him too but it could be a way out of hunting, a way to a normal life. Although, Dean barely remembers living a normal life and he doesn't know if he ever can. He knows he can get a real job and a place for them to live. A house, he'd find them a house with a back yard. That would be the easy part. He could put on a good show, pretend he's normal, but Dean doesn't know if he'd be able to forget what's out there in the dark. Could he ignore the fact that people were dying? People he could help.
“Are you awake?” Lexi mumbled into his neck a few minutes later interrupting his thoughts.
“Yeah. I thought you were asleep.”
“I can't sleep.” She pulled slightly back from Dean and propped up on her elbow. “I just keep thinking about what we're going to do.”
“What do you wanna do, Lex?”
“I don't know. Part of me...I mean, I don't think I can go nine months and then give the baby up for adoption. I'd always be wondering what happened to them...”
“Yeah, I couldn't do that either.” Dean sighed and ran a hand down his face before continuing. “So, adoptions off the table. That leaves us with two choices. Keep it or...”
“I don't...”
Dean gathered Lexi up in his arms and gave her a little squeeze. “It's okay, Lex. We don't have to decide right this second. We still got time. Why don't we try and get some sleep, uh?”
“Okay.”
Three Days Later
Dean peeled the label off his bottle of beer as he waited alone at the bar. He couldn't help but be anxious. His father would be walking through that door at any minute and then the shit was gonna hit the fan. Dean finished off his beer just as John entered the bar. He took the stool next to his son and ordered them each a beer. John waited until they had their drinks before asking, “You wanna tell me why you wanted to talk to me here and not at the house?”
“Cuz I need to tell you something that I don't want Sammy to know about.”
John to a long pull off his beer then turned to look at Dean. “Are you gonna tell me what's going on, Son?”
Dean bit down on his bottom lip trying to muster up some courage. At the moment he'd rather take on a werewolf with his bare hands then talk to his dad. Dean looked at his dad and blurted out, “Lexi's knocked up.”
“What? Dean, how could you be so careless?”
“I wasn't...the condom broke. But there's um more...”
“More?”
“Yeah. Her asshole father found the pregnancy test and threw her out. She's been staying at the house, she had no where else to go. Dad, if you don't want Lexi there that's fine. I'll go find us our own place.”
“She can stay.”
“What about your no attachments rule?” Dean looked at his dad with wide eyes not bothering to hide his shock. “You're not gonna yell?”
“It seems pointless now, don't ya think? I told you to break it off before you got attached. You didn't listen. Told ya not to knock her up and you did. You made your bed, son. Now you gotta lie in it.”
With that said John laid a ten dollar bill on the bar and walked out. Dean stared at his father's retreating back not knowing what to think. This was not how he pictured their conversation ending. He didn't think his father would be so calm. He expected one of John's angry rants about no attachments and for disobeying orders. Dean finished off his beer telling himself not to look a gift horse in the mouth, he had enough to worry about.
October 6, 2000
Lexi entered the living room to find Dean sitting on the couch with head phones on and his eyes closed. She walked over to him placing her hand on his shoulder. He opened his eyes and took off his head phones asking, “Something wrong, Lex?”
She bit down on her bottom lip before joining Dean on the couch. Lexi ran her hands through her hair taking a deep breath. She knew she needed to tell Dean her decision, she just hoped he wouldn't hate her when it was all said and done. “Dean, I know what I want to do. I'm not...I'm not going to have the baby. Please, don't hate me.”
“I don't hate you, Lex. If that's what you want to do then make the appointment and I'll go with you.”
“You will?”
“Of course.” Dean sat up straight and looked at her his eyebrows inching up into his hair line. “You didn't think I'd let you go by yourself, did you?”
Lexi shook her head no while sighing. It wasn't that she didn't think he would go with her, it was the situation they were now in. It had her twisted in knots making her feel like she was all alone. “I...you're a good guy, Dean.”
“Ah, that's only cuz I'm sweet on you.” Lexi smiled at him, it was the first time he's seen her smile in days. He grinned back at her as he inched closer to her. “I missed that smile of yours.”
“Yeah, well...”
“Why don't we go out, uh? You haven't left the house except to go to school since I brought you here last Thursday night.”
“Okay. I could really go for some Chinese.”
Dean smiled at her, then pressed a kiss to her temple. “Chinese it is then.”
October 8, 2000
Dean sat in the emergency room with his head in his hands. He hated waiting. He had been sitting here for at least an hour now. He had no idea what was going on with her, the not knowing was driving him crazy. No one was telling him anything. All he knew was that Lexi woke up with severe pains in her stomach. That's how they ended up here. When they arrived, the emergency room staff had rushed Lexi into an exam room and left him behind to fill out paperwork. He's been sitting here alone ever since. He probably should've brought Sam with him. At least he wouldn't be waiting this out by himself.
It was almost two hours before a doctor came to talk to him. Dean barely registered what she was saying. All he heard was, 'She lost the baby.', everything after that sounded fuzzy and far away. Dean looked down at the doctor and asked, “Can I see Lexi now?”
“Of course, follow me.”
Dean followed her silently as they made their way to Lexi's room. He was trying to make sense of what he was feeling. Part of Dean felt relief that the decision was taken out of their hands, the other part of him was sad. He didn't know why he felt this sudden sadness. He wasn't ready to be someone's father but knowing the baby was gone...it hurt.
Dean stopped outside of Lexi's room and shook his head. He didn't know what he was going to say to her. How could he when he didn't understand what he was feeling himself? It didn't matter though, he had to put on a brave face for Lexi. Dean took a deep breath to steady himself and plastered a smile on his face as he walked into her room, “Hey, Lex, how you feeling?”
“Alright, I guess. Did you talk to the doctor?”
“Yeah,” Dean nodded while sitting on the vinyl chair next to her bed. He reached for her hand, laced his fingers through hers and squeezed. “you're gonna be fine. She said they're gonna do a D & C in the morning and if everything goes ok you'll be released in the afternoon.”
“Dean, I... please, don't go.”
Dean got out of the chair and sat next to Lexi on her bed. He wrapped his arm around her shoulders as he rested his head against hers. Lexi shifted to give Dean more room on the bed and yawned. “Lex, you're exhausted. Why don't you humor me and go to sleep? I ain't going anywhere. I'm staying right here with you. You're stuck with me.”
Lexi nodded and within minutes she was fast asleep, her head resting against Dean's shoulder.
The quiet didn't last long. In less than an hour, the peacefulness in the room was gone. Dean didn't think the night could get any worse but it did with the arrival of Lexi's parents. The sound of her father's voice was echoing up the hallway and getting louder by the moment. Lexi sat up in bed looking towards the door with wide fright filled eyes. “Dean, I don't want them here.”
“I'll take care of it.”
Dean went out into the hallway with the sole purpose of keeping Lexi's parents from entering her room. He stood in front of Lexi's door arms crossed. If her father wanted into the room he would have to get through Dean to do it. There was no way Dean was going to let that happen. He loomed over her father, eyes hard. “What the hell are you doing here?”
“We're here to see our daughter.”
“Your daughter? You mean the one you threw out on the street cuz she was pregnant?” Dean growled while clenching his fists.
Marianne Brennan looked from her husband to Dean not bothering to hide her shock. “What?”
“You didn't know? You mean Joe here didn't tell you I knocked his little angel up?”
“No! He told me they got into a fight and she took off with you. I've been calling her for a week but she hasn't returned any of my calls.”
Dean looked at Joe Brennan, eyebrow cocked. “That's real nice man. You kick your sixteen year old daughter out and then lie to your wife about it. And you got the balls to say I'm the asshole.”
“Dean,” Marianne said placing her hand on his arm. “what's going on? The hospital only told us she was here.”
“Lexi's okay but she lost the baby. And, she doesn't want to see you right now.”
“How do you know that?” Lexi's father barked at Dean.
“Because,” Dean hissed, “she told me not to let you in her room.”
“Like hell!”
Dean stepped in front of her father and glared down at him. “You're not going in there and upsetting her. I'm not gonna let that happen.”
“OH you're not gonna let that happen, uh?”
“I'm not. She doesn't need your bullshit.” Dean turned towards Marianne speaking in a softer tone, “I'll tell Lexi you didn't know what was going on and have her call you, okay?”
“Okay. Keep an eye on her for me, Dean.”
“I will.”
Dean watched Marianne Brennan drag her husband down the hall before going back into Lexi's room. He would've felt sorry for Joe Brennan getting his ass chewed out by his wife if he wasn't such an asshole. But Dean knew whatever Marianne said wouldn't make a difference. Joe Brennan was still going to give him and Lexi a hard time. He didn't like Dean from the moment he laid eyes on him and nothing was going to change that.