So, the details of my life before I was 18 (other than when I was 14) is mostly a mystery to all of you. You may know little bits of stuff but I'm doing a whole house cleaning thing with my life. The things I felt and did and why. This'll probably be a series of posts. There's too much to write in one post and I'm sure I'll run out of emotional ( Read more... )

I've gotten about 10 calls today. Anyone checking on me? Sure... they wanted me to pick up the niece and nephew from school today (and probably tomorrow). I didn't answer the house phone or my cell phone even once. I only know that the niece and nephew needed picking up is because my nephew called me from his phone. I feel badly for my niece and ( Read more... )

So I won't go into detail what Dmitri tried in order to get me to stay with him. Upsetting. But not in a life or death kind of way. Just a stupid thing to do. It has led me to the conclusion that I will not be weening myself off anymore because of what he's done. I'm just not going back. This post will be how I let him know. If he wants to confront ( Read more... )

Okay, only a few things of note. It's two days away and now I'm nauseous. Cried a little today. Took a 4 hour nap, so some form of depression has kicked in. Nothing horrendous, it would seem, as of yet. Just a few minor inconveniences ( Read more... )

My manners are still intact. Which is a good thing ( Read more... )

I was listening to my music and Tim McGraw's Don't Take The Girl came on. I listened through it and decided to go on YouTube and watch the music video. Not much to see really, they could have done so much more with it, but alas, for lack of vision. Well, after it was over, I was about to close the window and I saw Rascal Flatt's What Hurts The Most ( Read more... )

...since my last post. About time I posted something ( Read more... )

So I've spent the last two weekends with Dmitri. There was the usual. All good things, don't get me wrong... it's just "the usual." I'm starting to feel restless. The Seasonal Affect is lifting and I want more than kid gloves. It's time for Dmitri to take them off. They were necessary but not anymore. He'll read this and hopefully actually ( Read more... )

I've been asleep for all but 3.5 hours today and it's 5:30PM. And I totally could just crawl back into bed and not wake up until the morning. Obviously it's depression. Now this is the holiday/seasonal affect that I know. Sleeping all day and hating everything. Except for one person. We'll not go into that. Dreaming has become problematic. I keep ( Read more... )

So I just happened to want to read the news titles on my.yahoo.com (which has really gone downhill) and my horoscope was at the bottom. Now normally, I don't give those types of things a second thought (or first for that matter) but this time it had a good point. I sit confused about things until I spill everything and think through it with someone ( Read more... )