"Justin!" you say. "You went back to bed and fell asleep about 5 AM and it's 7:30 AM. What are you doing up and awake? You should be tired!"
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My parents are gone this weekend. 1 week. I'll be gone the next weekend. 2 weeks. Then I'll be able to go to Houston. 3 weeks.

I broke the news to him tonight. He was oddly... upset by the news. He wants to come down here this weekend. I know if I do that my sister will come over. She's got a 6th sense. Evil!!! I very tempted to have him come down ( Read more... )

So I had a revelation dream last night.
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So, since the late night hang up call, I haven't heard from Dmitri. I took him off of IM and deleted him from my phone. He has not tried to contact me in any way. Which is all for the best. He should be able to understand that if I can't handle his baggage that I am not the right guy for him. Which, of course, may lead him to lie to the next guy. I ( Read more... )

So, to start off with, I'm still in a moderate state of depression. The tiredness comes and goes. The anger is readily at the hilt. But there have been more sunny and mildly warm days lately so I've gotten by. Of course the next 2-3 days, it's supposed to rain, just like it did today. And I finished week one of my Acc't I class. Got a 94-95 on the ( Read more... )

I've been asleep for all but 3.5 hours today and it's 5:30PM. And I totally could just crawl back into bed and not wake up until the morning. Obviously it's depression. Now this is the holiday/seasonal affect that I know. Sleeping all day and hating everything. Except for one person. We'll not go into that. Dreaming has become problematic. I keep ( Read more... )

I told girlofavalon last night that I had been having sexual dreams all the time. I then told her that I was tired of having sexual dreams. I said that they were nice and all but it was weird every night to be half awakened and horny as all hell ( Read more... )

Last night's dreams were completely unsatisfying and never went in a positive direction. Thoroughly unsatisfying.

So I've been trying to think of what to write for days now. I haven't purposefully been avoiding it, I don't think. Dmitri and I are still in a holding pattern. We've started talking about light things, in the evening via IM. He puts his toe in the 'relationship waters' but quickly pulls it out with a joke, like he wasn't serious in the first place ( Read more... )

So this happened over the weekend, on Friday or Saturday, so I'm sorry I haven't gotten around to it until now. It's a short one. I was in that almost awake but still asleep space and I felt Second John in the bed next to me. I was really close to being in the middle so I thought, 'He's probably on the edge of the bed. I should move over.' So I ( Read more... )