Now, I've made no secret about the fact that I have a mental illness. It's something I deal with every day and I've talked about before. I've talked about how because the majority of people act a certain way then it is considered "normal" and becomes the "social norm." Anything different is deviant and not always accepted. Let's explore the concept ( Read more... )

I found out that I could use this website, with a little personal information (such as full legal name including middle initial, etc. basically nothing that isn't already out there), to generate form letters to send to various government agencies to petition them for whatever they have in their files about me. For those that aren't American there's ( Read more... )

So the boy and I had an issue last night. He asked if my father was back yet. I told him that I had already said that my parents were back yesterday. I'll just do the high lights.

• I answered more than one of his text messages in a single text message.
• I wondered if he was paying attention to what I said or if he was ignoring me
• He said he was busy ( Read more... )

So I had the boy down Friday and Saturday. Now, on Friday we pretty much went straight to bed because it was over an hour after my bedtime when he arrived. So nothing was really done.

However... on Saturday morning I wake up to the boy having spent the past 2 hours looking up 'proper protocol for a slave.' One, he's expressed an interest in ( Read more... )

Okay, all my knowledge is 3rd hand. So just bare with me ( Read more... )

My manners are still intact. Which is a good thing ( Read more... )

...since my last post. About time I posted something ( Read more... )

It was Thursday. We talked about what I wanted to bring up. We all know what that was. Well, most of us. For those of you missing a page here it was about the first time I was raped 'lo these 17 years ago. And it wasn't the last time I was raped. It was a long series of events that included humiliation, pain, torture, objectification, rape and ( Read more... )

So... my parents were out of town this weekend. They went up to Arlington to visit with the future daughter-in-law and family-in-law. So this time Dmitri made the trip down here. I'm of two minds about it. I like it because it's convenient for me not to have to drive up to Houston and I'm in my home environment. I don't like it because that means ( Read more... )

Here is when I go into that "Damage Control" mind frame coupled with annoyance with myself and remembering what it's like to be unmedicated because the medication ain't workin' to it's fullest. Well, it is working to it's fullest, it's just that the psychosis is overcoming the medication's ability to help. And a certain anniversary is right around ( Read more... )