So... Nauseous, Nervous, & Not Pregnant
Okay, only a few things of note. It's two days away and now I'm nauseous. Cried a little today. Took a 4 hour nap, so some form of depression has kicked in. Nothing horrendous, it would seem, as of yet. Just a few minor inconveniences.
I sent an offline IM to an ex of mine that I irregularly speak to. The message was: "I haven't seen you online in about 2.5 weeks. I'm just wondering how you're doing." His response: "great g/f is great." STOP Now, before we go any further, let me just say that the 9 months we spent together, 6 of which we lived together, every morning he would hop onto my lap, straddle me, and ride me like a cheap circus pony. NOW does "g/f" not denote "girlfriend?" Please say there's another meaning to it. Because I'd hate for him to ruin his life and some woman's life with a horrible marriage, have kids, realize he can't live without dick and either a)cheats on her or b)divorces her or c)she catches him and divorces him. Leaving the woman bitter and the kids emotions in a shambles.
I sent him another offline message asking if "g/f" means "girlfriend," but he hasn't gotten back to me, yet.
I let a lot of things slide because, hey, all things are transitory so no sense in dwelling on things (Second John not withstanding), but when you're lying to yourself and to another person and it affects both of you in the way that it does as it would in this case, I tend to take issue. I've made the decision that if he comes back and says, "Yep. It means girlfriend, she's great," I'm going to have to stop speaking to him and wash my hands of it. Because honestly, that's a lie of epic proportions. One so big that even I can't comprehend it. I had my dick in his ass every morning for 6 months. He is not straight. He never once showed an interest in women and even agreed with me that the idea of sex with a woman is wrong (for either of us). So I await the axe fall.
I know that I haven't mentioned him in a few weeks but D is very much alive and we are still seeing each other on weekends. This past weekend he was particularly amorous. I'm talking 4-5 times in 16 hours. I think he was trying to keep my mind off of John. He never gave me any indication of that but it's something he would do.
So yeah, all the news that fit to be print.
I sent an offline IM to an ex of mine that I irregularly speak to. The message was: "I haven't seen you online in about 2.5 weeks. I'm just wondering how you're doing." His response: "great g/f is great." STOP Now, before we go any further, let me just say that the 9 months we spent together, 6 of which we lived together, every morning he would hop onto my lap, straddle me, and ride me like a cheap circus pony. NOW does "g/f" not denote "girlfriend?" Please say there's another meaning to it. Because I'd hate for him to ruin his life and some woman's life with a horrible marriage, have kids, realize he can't live without dick and either a)cheats on her or b)divorces her or c)she catches him and divorces him. Leaving the woman bitter and the kids emotions in a shambles.
I sent him another offline message asking if "g/f" means "girlfriend," but he hasn't gotten back to me, yet.
I let a lot of things slide because, hey, all things are transitory so no sense in dwelling on things (Second John not withstanding), but when you're lying to yourself and to another person and it affects both of you in the way that it does as it would in this case, I tend to take issue. I've made the decision that if he comes back and says, "Yep. It means girlfriend, she's great," I'm going to have to stop speaking to him and wash my hands of it. Because honestly, that's a lie of epic proportions. One so big that even I can't comprehend it. I had my dick in his ass every morning for 6 months. He is not straight. He never once showed an interest in women and even agreed with me that the idea of sex with a woman is wrong (for either of us). So I await the axe fall.
I know that I haven't mentioned him in a few weeks but D is very much alive and we are still seeing each other on weekends. This past weekend he was particularly amorous. I'm talking 4-5 times in 16 hours. I think he was trying to keep my mind off of John. He never gave me any indication of that but it's something he would do.
So yeah, all the news that fit to be print.