I haven't updated in quite a bit, I guess. Things with my neighbor have escalated pretty seriously, and I've called and had the cops come to my house 3x. Francisco has cum all over my window, left pubic hair sticking out of his cum, urinated on my window, and left underwear hanging outside of my window. I've vacillated between nervous breakdowns ( Read more... )

I'm so depressed today. For so many reasons. I feel ugly and unlovable, for one. And then I had to tell Mike today that I can't attend the intensive this year, even though he offered me financial assistance - I can't even afford the plane trip out there. It's the first year I'm not going, and I benefitted so much last time. I cried when I wrote the ( Read more... )

The seal has been broken by Mr. Jackson. Thank you, Mr. Jackson ( Read more... )

Well, I have to say that I've never gotten so many looks, so much attention from men, as now, when i'm not at my smallest, but when I'm happier. I don't know why. Maybe I just have a different vibe about myself now or something ( Read more... )

Yeah, I'm done. i've worn myself out, and I'm done. I'm text messaging with Eric now, but I don't care about him anymore. And now I don't care about Daniel anymore because he hardly responds to my text messages, and I feel like my ardour is unreciprocated. I definitely don't want to be on the love bus alone. I told him I liked him way too much last ( Read more... )

This guy would probably be the man of my dreams if only I were attracted to him. His pictures are decent, but he's honestly just not attractive enough for me. It's so sad! We made out several times last night, and he got attached really quickly. Like, he told me several times that he's going to fall in love with me. "I'm going to fall in love with ( Read more... )

I'm sitting in the dining area of my new apartment in Williamsburg. The birds are chirping. There's a light autumn breeze breathing through the window. I just finished breakfast ( Read more... )

I just cried watching "How I Met Your Mother." I've never seen that show until a couple days ago. I'm in love with Ted. It's awful ( Read more... )

Last Alcoholic Beverage: Jeremiah Red (and a half a pitcher too much of it, at that)

Last Cigarette: Last Saturday, with Kirsten. An American Spirit. Ew.

Last Song Listened To: Make Me Proud -- Drake

Last Kiss: Bobby O'Mara...sigh

Last Cry: Over John, I think over a month ago. Wow. When the John went away, I stopped crying.

Last Book Bought: The ( Read more... )

I have date hypochondria. "Date Hypochondria" is a term I coined today. My date with Bobby went so well, despite the odds. I drank too much and felt sick, and I thought I was going to get frostbite ( Read more... )