Well, here I am in life. Funny how the romantic days of writing in a physical journal are over. Who will find the countless pages of my personal thoughts, 200 years in the future, when they can all be erased with a click of the "deactivate" button on my account. All my thoughts - all the frailty and depression and heartbreak and rare happy moments ( Read more... )

I came to Bardo Coffee Shop to write, not to write about Aaron.

We've been married for three weeks now, and I've tried to leave him twice - on our honeymoon. It's been horrible, though I know some of it is my fault. I don't think it's necessarily been my fault on the honeymoon, but I have a ton to do with contributing to how things are currently ( Read more... )

It finally hit me today that it's two months - less than two months - until I get married to Aaron. That's such an odd feeling. Something within me is snapping into action, finally, and I'm scrolling through a mental to-do list.

But there are so may thoughts I'm having. A lot of emotions. What does it mean to be a wife? How does this position me ( Read more... )

Two days ago, June 24th, Aaron and I were in a tent in Michigan, at the Electric Forest music festival, lying on our inflatable mattress. I'd just woken up after about an hour and a half of sleep, and Aaron hadn't slept at all. We were just smiling at each other and saying our I love yous, as we do most mornings that we find ourselves awake at the ( Read more... )

I love him so much. I had no idea I was capable of loving someone so much. I can't get enough of him; I want to marry him ( Read more... )

I haven't written in awhile. I'm not sure if that's an indicator that things are good or just busy ( Read more... )

I am not drunk, and today was fairly bizarre. But that's why I'm writing: I am so, so, SO in love. I'm so excited to marry Aaron and love him for the rest of my life, whatever happens ( Read more... )

I just had such an amazing voice lesson. Apparently my French has much improved, and my voice is drastically improving. I’m so excited about it and happy ( Read more... )

Aaron is in first place, and I'm so in love with him. SO in love with him ( Read more... )

Okay, so it took, what, 5 days before I got over the new relationship thing and am not completely fucking in love with Aaron. Like, head over heels. All I want to do is be with him and kiss him and touch him and have him touch me and talk with him. He is everything I want - fuck everything I thought when I was looking for reasons not to be with him ( Read more... )