Hopeless, Romantic, Stressed, and Tired
I just cried watching "How I Met Your Mother." I've never seen that show until a couple days ago. I'm in love with Ted. It's awful.
Two things:
They gave me my contract today. $40k. That's nothing compared to what other people are making, especially for a decent wage for New York professionals. They spend $45k a month on rent. I'm worth more than a month of rent, damn it. Now I have to argue tomorrow. I'll be grinding my teeth tonight. Fuck.
Also, I realized that I shouldn't even worry about Jorge. I shouldn't really worry about anyone right now because no one I know is right for me. No one I know. I haven't met the one, yet, and I won't know I've met the one until he feels the same way about me as I feel about him-until I fall in love. I don't know how to meet him, but I guess we'll meet because it has to happen. I'm tired of trying. I'm exhausted by caring about EVERYthing.
May tomorrow pass quickly. I'm stressed thinking about it. I need to do my face homework tonight, but I'm too exhausted. I spent almost two hours at the gym. I ate a large, but healthy, dinner of seaweed salad, an apple and peanut butter, an avocado, and carrots with hummus. That's huge, but I was hungry for it and don't feel uncomfortably full.
I am tired of sleeping alone, but I guess that's how the world works for people like me.
Two things:
They gave me my contract today. $40k. That's nothing compared to what other people are making, especially for a decent wage for New York professionals. They spend $45k a month on rent. I'm worth more than a month of rent, damn it. Now I have to argue tomorrow. I'll be grinding my teeth tonight. Fuck.
Also, I realized that I shouldn't even worry about Jorge. I shouldn't really worry about anyone right now because no one I know is right for me. No one I know. I haven't met the one, yet, and I won't know I've met the one until he feels the same way about me as I feel about him-until I fall in love. I don't know how to meet him, but I guess we'll meet because it has to happen. I'm tired of trying. I'm exhausted by caring about EVERYthing.
May tomorrow pass quickly. I'm stressed thinking about it. I need to do my face homework tonight, but I'm too exhausted. I spent almost two hours at the gym. I ate a large, but healthy, dinner of seaweed salad, an apple and peanut butter, an avocado, and carrots with hummus. That's huge, but I was hungry for it and don't feel uncomfortably full.
I am tired of sleeping alone, but I guess that's how the world works for people like me.