Bath Tub

Rebekah © September 2009

I feel like I am sitting
In a bath tub
Water running full blast
Idea are like voices trying to talk to me
But the voices mixed
The running water
All turns to static
Nothing is done

I want to. . .

• Clean the living room
• Do the dishes
• Watch Harry Potter 1-5
• Watch Kingdom of Heaven
• Work on my novel

I don’t drive.  My story is complicated, but I’ll try to keep simple and short. . . (me and short, the only thing short about me is height 5ft.)

When I was about 12 years old, my brother and I had a paper route where we delivered newspapers for about three-four blocks around our house. We were scouting the route and I got hit by a car. I fell down ( Read more... )

I also have been thinking that  I have been trying to be someone for everyone else that I have lost sight of who I really am ( Read more... )

The thing about the whole mess is that my friend is still alive, but due to his bitch for a wife, I will probably never get a chance to talk to him again ( Read more... )

I have a list of frustraion that I just have to get off my chest ( Read more... )

I  have some advice for any guy out there that cannot handle or does not like someone who is on the bigger side: please just leave me alone, I will make sure that the webmaster knows that you are harassing me. . . and no one wants a lawsuit. (This happened on okcupid.com ( Read more... )

I am very proud of the moment I had just a few months, ago. . . if you have been reading my blog you will discover that I have "snapped:" not in the psycho way, but in the way of opening my eyes wider and seeing more of the world.

I have been doing more, communicating openly, crying, and less fearing. I still worry, but that is written in my DNA.

I ( Read more... )

Why is it that once you have someone everyone comes crawling out of the crack just to see if you're single?

Why weren't there when I needed them to be . . . when I was lonely and wanted a friend? (Of course . . . they don't want "just a friend". They want a "friend with benefits, or a "fuck buddy" they have on the side as they are searching for ( Read more... )

November 2008

The only thing I want is to know what I want

My birthday is in three weeks and yet I have no idea what I want. I guess I just want to know what I really want. When I am not breaking down or going through emotional outbursts, I am usually just content with a notebook, a working pen, a can of Dr. Pepper, and a good play list or CD.

I ( Read more... )