Many Frustations
I have a list of frustraion that I just have to get off my chest.
1. I haven't not been sleeping right. . .I either sleep 4 hours and cannot sleep all day, but I am so exhausted I cannot focus or I sleep so hard I cannot be woken up on time. . . I think it has to do with that I am helping a friend of mine. He has at least 3 more major things to do this next week and he leaves for Canada on Friday. The biggest thing has to do with his appartment, and I am hoping that if we fill out all of the right paper work, everything will go okay.
2. There are so many things I want to do with my friend before he goes to Canada. . .
1. Finish reading "Queen of the Damned." (we have over 400 pages in a week. . .)
2. Watch a list ful of movies
3. Cook together
4. Write a few short stories together
5. Go for another walk together
6. Clean his apartment
7. Just have fun
3. We went to figure out his rent issues, because I will have to handle it while he is gone. We just went on three hour bus ride for nothing as I could have gotten the same information if I had called the office. I didn't think to call the damn office until until we were half way to home.
4. I am doing all these thing for a guy I may and probably won't ever get back. Please don't get me wrong, I am helping him out, because I really like hanging out with him, and I want him to be prepared for this trip, But I still love him, and deep inside do not want him to go. (However this frustraion has been on and off on this blog for a while. . .) I know he has to go on this trip. . . it's like a spiritual journey of courage, hope, and inspiration for him.
5. I am getting really sick of being everyone's everything. When will I just get to be me, whenever I figure out who that is completely.
6. I hate when money is super tight, I feel like I am holding glass money, and I am baout to break it if I don't budget right. . .
7. My mom, uncle or I cannot seem to find a job. . . and when I do see someone hiring, they seem to hire who they know first, not who is really qualified. I have an associate of arts, and yet most place will either say I am over qualified or under qualified and now it's that I don't know anyone who will hire, except my father, but I refuse to work with him. I also can't lift more than 20 lbs, thanks to a bad spleen.
8. I am just a little nervous about apartment sitting, because I heard his apartment manger can be a real pain.
9. I am trying to find, international penpals and e-mail friends, but why does it seem I keep getting the guys from India who want to marry me so they can live in the United States. . . first of all, I have issues with marriage, secondly there is only one person I would possibly marry at this point, and he is taken, and thirdly, you do not want to come to America: we are in recession. I mean if an actually American citizen canot get a simple job, why do you think you can get a job?
10. I also feel that is summer is going to be really boring and lonely or so busy that I will forget most of it.
11. I also want to work my story, but I have been mental fried and socially busy, but after 24th I will get the book done. Hopefully, it will be typed, rewritten, and print, by June 1, 2009. I hope so.
1. I haven't not been sleeping right. . .I either sleep 4 hours and cannot sleep all day, but I am so exhausted I cannot focus or I sleep so hard I cannot be woken up on time. . . I think it has to do with that I am helping a friend of mine. He has at least 3 more major things to do this next week and he leaves for Canada on Friday. The biggest thing has to do with his appartment, and I am hoping that if we fill out all of the right paper work, everything will go okay.
2. There are so many things I want to do with my friend before he goes to Canada. . .
1. Finish reading "Queen of the Damned." (we have over 400 pages in a week. . .)
2. Watch a list ful of movies
3. Cook together
4. Write a few short stories together
5. Go for another walk together
6. Clean his apartment
7. Just have fun
3. We went to figure out his rent issues, because I will have to handle it while he is gone. We just went on three hour bus ride for nothing as I could have gotten the same information if I had called the office. I didn't think to call the damn office until until we were half way to home.
4. I am doing all these thing for a guy I may and probably won't ever get back. Please don't get me wrong, I am helping him out, because I really like hanging out with him, and I want him to be prepared for this trip, But I still love him, and deep inside do not want him to go. (However this frustraion has been on and off on this blog for a while. . .) I know he has to go on this trip. . . it's like a spiritual journey of courage, hope, and inspiration for him.
5. I am getting really sick of being everyone's everything. When will I just get to be me, whenever I figure out who that is completely.
6. I hate when money is super tight, I feel like I am holding glass money, and I am baout to break it if I don't budget right. . .
7. My mom, uncle or I cannot seem to find a job. . . and when I do see someone hiring, they seem to hire who they know first, not who is really qualified. I have an associate of arts, and yet most place will either say I am over qualified or under qualified and now it's that I don't know anyone who will hire, except my father, but I refuse to work with him. I also can't lift more than 20 lbs, thanks to a bad spleen.
8. I am just a little nervous about apartment sitting, because I heard his apartment manger can be a real pain.
9. I am trying to find, international penpals and e-mail friends, but why does it seem I keep getting the guys from India who want to marry me so they can live in the United States. . . first of all, I have issues with marriage, secondly there is only one person I would possibly marry at this point, and he is taken, and thirdly, you do not want to come to America: we are in recession. I mean if an actually American citizen canot get a simple job, why do you think you can get a job?
10. I also feel that is summer is going to be really boring and lonely or so busy that I will forget most of it.
11. I also want to work my story, but I have been mental fried and socially busy, but after 24th I will get the book done. Hopefully, it will be typed, rewritten, and print, by June 1, 2009. I hope so.