"It is finished." (No this post isn't religious, the line just worked.)

I thought I would feel amazed, relieved, happy, and ecstatic that I got my book: that I was able to see something that I struggled with and accomplished. However I sit here and I feel like a summer day after a hot rain and that did nothing, but make it more humid. I know I am ( Read more... )

I think that there is something spiritually holding me back from writing my NaNoWriMo 2011 Novel. There are several issues that have been driving me crazy. The issues are:

• My family
  • My brother unhappiness in the bottom of bottle (He think he is happy or content when he is drunk, but he just disturbs everyone and cannot walk. He just hiding bigger ( Read more... )

It's only the 6th of January and I am already wanting 2012 to be over . . .

• I was sick over New Years so I made a bunch of food that put me over my budget and I couldn't tase any of it.
• Now Tom is sick and I am still weak.
• I still have the cold settling in my chest.
• My wisdom teeth need removed, but I have no insurance. They have screwed up most of my ( Read more... )

I don’t understand why some people out there can’t be alone. . . they have to have someone.

“I don’t want to die alone,” someone once told me. . .

My question to them “What are you going to do, take them with you when you die?”

I do live with my boyfriend, but there are times where I ask for time for myself. There are also times I just imagine what ( Read more... )

I have to write this up quickly before I turn on all of the lights and clean the living room.

I have learned a few things about myself this weekend. . .

Well, first of all . . . in many of my previous blogs I have mentioned whether or not I want a kid. . . I am currently in the mood where I do not. I feel wishy-washy about so many things. . . I ( Read more... )

My Updated Warning

This is a copy of the original dated June 6, 2006 http://rebekah1213.livejournal.com/145028.html

Lets see what has changed; shall we. (First all the original was three pages long. Red is added, Blue is changed)

June 22, 2011

My Warning

I was thinking for anyone who hangs out with me or dates me, you must be forewarned.

I’m ( Read more... )

There is so much going on with father, brothers and my (ex) stepmother . . .

In September, my father filed for divorce which has just gotten nastier and nastier. My (ex) stepmother’s lawyer is trying to fight with and get the boy out of home schooling. The boys like their schooling (or at least they told me that did.)

Let me step back and explain ( Read more... )

Well, I have a lot to write on my family so I am dividing them into several blogs.

First blog is about my 26 year old brother. . . If you have read some of my previous blogs than you would know that I ask for positive vibes, prayers, spells, and optimistic thoughts toward him as he had an infection from his teeth which went to his heart and lungs ( Read more... )

Well, I am going to mush a few things that have just struck a nerve . . . ironically they are both things that older women have done. . .

First of all, I start with what I thought I knew, or whom I thought I knew. . . my stepmother and my father are in the middle of brutal divorce. (I’m surprised they lasted this long, but I think it was because ( Read more... )

Drama follows me like puppy chasing after that young kid, hoping they will take it home and care for it. Well, drama can go fuck yourself!

Anyway, Saturday Tom and I got to hang out with my father as we all went to visit my brother. I got to find out what is going on with my father and step-mother divorce which is way more drama than I probably ( Read more... )