I've been thinking. . . I am in the Middle
I also have been thinking that I have been trying to be someone for everyone else that I have lost sight of who I really am.
I strive to be a teacher in a constantly changing major, a frustrating major with people who didn't want to help, just to applease my father. It wasn't me. I don't mind teaching someone one on one when they are interesting learning on what I know.
I tried to be helpful, good, kind, bellowing, submissive to get approval, but then I just got walked on and taken advantage of. Then I tried to be pushy, bossy, and domineering, and then many people really didn't like me. Neither extreme was me. (I believe there is so much grayish middle in life!)
I tried to be very giving and extra generous for everyone to notice me, but in the end all I got were a lot of dramatic takers. It wasn't me.
I am not completely preppy, but I love to shop and paint my nails out of blue (I paint them myself).
I am not completely gothic, but I do enjoy embrancing the darkness and seeking the light.
I am not an overly religious person pushing the bible and Jesus down people's throats, but I am not not giving blood sacrifices to Satan.
I am not a conservative and I am not that much of a liberal. However I do see many issues of both sides.
I am not that logical as I have noo much emotion and instinct. However I try not to let my emotion completely rule my life.
I try not to leader all the time; sometimes I just sit back and let someone take control. But the are other times where I know things will get done if I take control the situation.
I have I am in the middle--the middle of everywhere and the middle of nowhere.
I strive to be a teacher in a constantly changing major, a frustrating major with people who didn't want to help, just to applease my father. It wasn't me. I don't mind teaching someone one on one when they are interesting learning on what I know.
I tried to be helpful, good, kind, bellowing, submissive to get approval, but then I just got walked on and taken advantage of. Then I tried to be pushy, bossy, and domineering, and then many people really didn't like me. Neither extreme was me. (I believe there is so much grayish middle in life!)
I tried to be very giving and extra generous for everyone to notice me, but in the end all I got were a lot of dramatic takers. It wasn't me.
I am not completely preppy, but I love to shop and paint my nails out of blue (I paint them myself).
I am not completely gothic, but I do enjoy embrancing the darkness and seeking the light.
I am not an overly religious person pushing the bible and Jesus down people's throats, but I am not not giving blood sacrifices to Satan.
I am not a conservative and I am not that much of a liberal. However I do see many issues of both sides.
I am not that logical as I have noo much emotion and instinct. However I try not to let my emotion completely rule my life.
I try not to leader all the time; sometimes I just sit back and let someone take control. But the are other times where I know things will get done if I take control the situation.
I have I am in the middle--the middle of everywhere and the middle of nowhere.