So, no post about the weekend. Simple reason. I broke things off with Dmitri.
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So I had a revelation dream last night.
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First of all, it's ya'll, not y'all. I've been saying it for 30 or so years. Here's how it works ( Read more... )

He told me that Robb was treating him better and Robb had made an appointment with a doctor to get his meds adjusted ( Read more... )

Dmitri told me Monday night via IM to come to his place around 1430 hours CST. And I did so. I had to pee but he wouldn't let me go inside. He just told me to get in the car and that we'd be at our destination in 5 minutes. Well, it was more like 15 minutes and much wondering if I would ruin Valentine's Day if I peed on myself. He pulled the car ( Read more... )

"I've been an idiot." That should be one of my tags. Anyway, as you know I was taking some time away from Dmitri. To think, to quiet my mind, to feel like I wasn't cheating on Second John; aka: Being an idiot. Instead of loving what was right in front of me for what it was, I did what I always do. I look for the negative. It's something that I have ( Read more... )

Someone suggested to me that I should finally write out my whole LTSR (Long Term Serial Rape) and put it all down on paper, err... electronically. Having just sat down and put my thoughts on the subject and compared it to serial rape and rape (both being, possibly planned by the attacker, but unknown to the victim) being different from LTSR because ( Read more... )

I think that the dark dream just mentioned Dakota because she and I come as a package deal. I just wish I knew what the duality thing was about. Maybe that if I'm with someone bright and cheery that I'll end up with the right one, bright cheery colors and sheets, even if he there's a more attractive offer? The other one is just a mess... dark ( Read more... )

...does anyone else think it's odd that we don't have revolutions like we used to? We just put up with the same BS until there's a natural disaster or there's someone who has to answer for some fraud or scheme? We don't stop shit before it happens anymore. We're reactionary not proactive. And given the state of the planet, we need to be a little ( Read more... )