My list of activities and obligations is increasing. This is what I wanted; however, there must be caution and preparation in case this is a blip. Of course, more optimistically, this could be a longterm situation. As my quality of life improves, there is more opportunity and possibility of being a productive member of society and contributing to ( Read more... )

I've long thought of the analogous terms that an individual is a nationstate. Right now, I am experiencing some foreign policy setbacks. Or, to take away the intellectual veneer: AA drama. It sounds so much prettier with an intellectual cover; it is easier to detach and view as a game. In fact, that's part of my overall detachment issues: I view ( Read more... )

Today is a better day. Yesterday was good, too. Today has been filled with racing thoughts, that if not accompanied by last week's reckless negativity or the week prior's depression I would readily (and perhaps happily) dismiss as ADD. The process of self-awareness is a bit odd; in these moments of optimism it feels endless ( Read more... )

I know it's over ( Read more... )

My mind can rarely form coherent thoughts. From time to time, when I go about updating this journal, I try to look at the most recent entries for some sort of thematic continuity. As I read through, I saw some titles that made me wonder --I was thinking of Oasis? I had listened to the Beatles recently? Even with the recent Talking Heads obsession, ( Read more... )

It feels silly to post a little musing on how things are well. Of course, that truly is the state of things; economic woes continue to be the most persistent issue; added to this is the joys and stresses of being productive and perhaps overextended ( Read more... )

I was looking through my phone to find something and there it was, a note from yesterday morning saying 'next lj title: a renewed sense of confidence (not arrogance)." I wish I could remember what I was feeling confident about yesterday. It's hard to believe that the note was written about 34 hours ago and it meant something then. A wave of sadness ( Read more... )

The past few days have been one of those semi-slowdowns in which one can gather a breathe or so, and with that a smidgen of perspective. Nonetheless, it is not a restful period. It is not a time to retire and reflect; it is literally a small breathe of acknowledgement, a moment of slowing down, drinking water, and continuing on the endlessly ( Read more... )

Another fairly successful week down. This is good ( Read more... )

It is rather late on a Sunday night. While this should not be the normal routine, the situation is comfortable for this week as tomorrow as a Holiday. Nonetheless, lesson planning should become a priority ( Read more... )