I've long thought of the analogous terms that an individual is a nationstate. Right now, I am experiencing some foreign policy setbacks. Or, to take away the intellectual veneer: AA drama. It sounds so much prettier with an intellectual cover; it is easier to detach and view as a game. In fact, that's part of my overall detachment issues: I view ( Read more... )

I was looking through my phone to find something and there it was, a note from yesterday morning saying 'next lj title: a renewed sense of confidence (not arrogance)." I wish I could remember what I was feeling confident about yesterday. It's hard to believe that the note was written about 34 hours ago and it meant something then. A wave of sadness ( Read more... )

There is a bridge adored and famed
The golden spine of engineering
whose back is heavy with my weightAround Thanksgiving I began a process of shifting and shuffling that has more or less come to an end, at least for now. As I've said on twitter (I really do repeat myself too often), the organization that was done was grouping like materials ( Read more... )

It (dummy "it") is early December and it would appear that the period of melancholia is almost at an end ( Read more... )

I never said
I never said
I could have mentioned your name
I could have dragged you in
Guilt by implication
By association
I've always been true to you
In my own strange way
I've always been true to you
In my own sick way
I'll always stay true to you-Morrissey, "Speedway ( Read more... )

An entry should follow soon, but in case it doesn't, I wanted to leave ya'll with these lyrics that are sort of on my mind:

Don't try to fight it, cause you won't ( Read more... )

Thus far, the afternoon has not been particularly productive, actually. I have started laundry (working on load 2 right now), and I took a brief nap (45 minutes). There is, of course, still much work to be done. Most of it is fairly easy and straightforward, actually. So, I've no major complaints in that regard. The past 2 weeks or so have been ( Read more... )

Today has been an exercise in Step 1: We admitted we were powerless over alcohol-that our lives had become unmanageable.I'm not sure how I feel about mixing this writing with my life in sobriety, but right now, I'm having a hard time making any distinctions. I suppose I haven't really separated them, as sobriety has become a defining feature of who ( Read more... )

Today has been an interesting day, thus far. I slept in rather "late" for me (I got up at 8:30; all week long I've been getting up at 5:45 or earlier). It felt good ( Read more... )

I got my forty dollar monthly allowance today from my uncle. The problem, unfortunately, is that I owed one friend 80 and one friend 50. I paid the friend I owe 80 the 40, so now I'm only in debt 90 dollars. Ha ( Read more... )