today, like most days recently, begins with sighs of defeat. I opted for an ice cream cone and making chai in the more conventional sense -- with milk and sweetener -- instead of going to church. I did wake up in time, and quite easily, but my body moved me slowly, away from typical routines ( Read more... )

I believe it was Sunday, I was filled with such ire, such blind rage, I decided I was going to write an entry about the 5 courses in all my formal education, from kindergarten to the present, that I disliked and made my blood boil then and now ( Read more... )

Today was an odd day. I don't know that I accomplished anything in a material sense, but I feel as if something happened. Something changed within me; however, as I said to a dear friend, I'm not sure I'll remember this in the morning ( Read more... )

Today has been an exercise in Step 1: We admitted we were powerless over alcohol-that our lives had become unmanageable.I'm not sure how I feel about mixing this writing with my life in sobriety, but right now, I'm having a hard time making any distinctions. I suppose I haven't really separated them, as sobriety has become a defining feature of who ( Read more... )

I don't know how to write anymore without being judged. I feel I may need to delete this journal, or at the very least start a new journal ( Read more... )

My left wrist has been in pain for at least a week now. I thought it had gotten better, so I went to put my watch on, and 15 minutes later, it hurt. Also, my back has been aching a bit. The fillings I had put in over the summer hurt a bit; I may end up having a root canal. That aside, I actually feel pretty good, physically. I have eased up on the ( Read more... )

I have done some reckless spending this week. yes, so horribly close to christmas. :-( but one would be a good book to have for my potential thesis that I have in mind, that I mentioned in that long ass entry I wrote yesterday. the other things were The Dinosaurs [season 1 and 2] DVD set, and Golden Girls Season 6, and The Band's "Music from Big ( Read more... )