When the world changed for me on 16 September 2010, it was a path carved out by modern medical science. The science I experienced and will forever bear scars from was only made possible by political realities. In June of 2010 I had turned 24; if not for the Affordable Healthcare Act, I would not have had the bariatric surgery. There are tough ( Read more... )

This is adapted from something I was writing to send to someone. It has been adapted to, and as the title suggests, is largely to me, but for those who are curious about alcoholism, read on. Otherwise, this is boring, pointless, and academic. I write this for myself, as a reminder that my past ideas, no matter how clever, didn't solve anything. No ( Read more... )

The past few days have been one of those semi-slowdowns in which one can gather a breathe or so, and with that a smidgen of perspective. Nonetheless, it is not a restful period. It is not a time to retire and reflect; it is literally a small breathe of acknowledgement, a moment of slowing down, drinking water, and continuing on the endlessly ( Read more... )

When the school year began in mid-August, I hit the ground running. I was caught up in the urgent need to learn and do so much. I had to pick a schedule at the high school; be firmer about sleep and what not; eat healthier and be more proactive; I tried to maintain my personal progress from the summer and reintegrate myself socially. In sum, there ( Read more... )

Because of terrible disconnects in my life ( my laptop dying again; some unpredictability and being unsure how to use my phone; and because the desktop I am now is rather sluggish and old), I had to go back and piece together some recent information, information "learned," experienced, read, felt, discussed ( Read more... )

I am often too caught up in stupid abstractions, rather than concrete details; however, when I focus on details, I lose sight of why I am doing what I am doing. In that sense, I am caught up in a push-pull factor, a constant balancing act. It leads to, I believe, a regular synthesis; creation, which then bifurcates and thus destroys it self. But ( Read more... )

At the time I begin typing this, it is most important to note that I am emotionally vulnerable. It is my sincere hope that this entry will serve to capture the essence of the moment (which may not happen), and convey an important message that will be of use to anyone who happens upon this prose for whatever reason ( Read more... )

A few quick notes that will hopefully mean something if/when I ever return to this post:

dichotomies that are defining my life: (in order of significance)

-authority v. anarchy (structure)
-extroversion v. introversion (building v. burning bridges)
-action v. reaction
-theory v. practice (and are they distinguishable?)

questions I ponder daily: ( Read more... )

It occurred to me that I had no updated in a few days. According to the time stamp, it has been since Saturday. I don't know if that'll be the norm --only a weekly update or two. But it does seem strange, given that I had that period of time (most of this year) where I was updating probably about 4-5 times a week, sometimes more, sometimes less ( Read more... )