I really, really, really miss him. It hurts more than I can possibly describe to have to fall asleep every night without him in bed beside me. It's easier when we can talk because we get into a routine where his voice is the last thing I hear before I pass out, so he lulls me to sleep every night, and then when he has to get up early for work, he ( Read more... )

Timmy's really sick. His lungs are over twice the size they should be, and Dr. Brown suspects that he may have congestive heart failure as well.

I feel like this is my fault. We spent $395 for a checkup, x-ray and medication today, but I don't care. I don't want him to suffer like some of the other ones did. I just wish that I could talk to Brandon ( Read more... )

Had the appointment with Martin today to go over the requirements for entering Ottawa U or Carleton U as a mature student. I meet every requirement EXCEPT that I need a 4U credit in three of biology, chemistry, physics, functions and relations, advanced functions, or calculus and vectors. So either way, I do have to go back to high school. So I'm ( Read more... )

Holy fuck, I'm so drained trying to deal with my family's bullshit. I don't really want to get dragged into this, but they're forcing me to. My mom kicked Michael out a couple of weeks ago and he thought it would be all gravy, that one of my parents would feel bad for him and let him come back, or at the very least one of his friends would take him ( Read more... )

Saw Dr. Lidstone again today and I'm more convinced than ever that this isn't the type of therapy I need. I need to learn how to cope when I start having anxiety, and all she does is basically provide support for people who are going back to work and school. We spend the entire session looking up high school diploma programs on Carleton U's website ( Read more... )

I've been to two sessions. It's going too fast. She's already talking about trying to get me into school ASAP. I can't handle it, fuck. I just can't. I can't go from not even having a daily schedule to going back to school in two sessions and a handful of weeks, fuck. I just can't do it. I'm not slacking - I'm doing everything she told me to. I did ( Read more... )

God dammit. Why can't university just come to me ( Read more... )

Fuck ( Read more... )