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Fuck.
They have a place for me in a program at the Royal Ottawa and now I have to decide whether to go back to school or go back to therapy. It seems like a clear-cut choice - obviously it would be better for me to go back to school, and that's what I WANT to do more than fucking anything else - but I know that I won't be able to stay if I don't get the therapy that I need, and I don't want to end up going back only to have to drop out and not only waste the course money, but also lose so much confidence that I'm too scared to do anything else for another year. My dad wants me to go to therapy, my mom wants me to go to school. I'm already registered for school but this is too good of an opportunity to pass up - the waiting list is like, eight months.
Ugh. I want school. But I think I have to choose therapy.
They have a place for me in a program at the Royal Ottawa and now I have to decide whether to go back to school or go back to therapy. It seems like a clear-cut choice - obviously it would be better for me to go back to school, and that's what I WANT to do more than fucking anything else - but I know that I won't be able to stay if I don't get the therapy that I need, and I don't want to end up going back only to have to drop out and not only waste the course money, but also lose so much confidence that I'm too scared to do anything else for another year. My dad wants me to go to therapy, my mom wants me to go to school. I'm already registered for school but this is too good of an opportunity to pass up - the waiting list is like, eight months.
Ugh. I want school. But I think I have to choose therapy.