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A few days before the war in Ukraine started, I was told that Russia had bought 45k body bags. At first it sounded like they were planning on a protracted war, but then it came out that they thought they were going to have an easy time taking over Ukraine. What then were the body bags for? We learned recently north of Kyiv. They were for atrocities ( Read more... )

Phew. Travelling with small children is not at all relaxing, y'all. I am going to need a vacation from my vacation. At least it is somewhat distracting me from the fact that today is Kevin's birthday.

I went to sleep right around midnight last night, and woke up at 11 but lay there for the hour before my alarm went off. I got up, ate breakfast, ( Read more... )

I went to sleep at some sort of reasonable hour last night. Maybe 11:30pm I think? Then I woke up at 11:30am. For once I felt fine. I had created a rather dier looking todo list last night, which was supposed to be split between today and tomorrow, so after poking my nose into Ukraine's business for a moment or two, I got started on that. Washing ( Read more... )

Today we are just all over the place. Rapid cycling from okay to miserable without much semblance of a reason. I fell asleep last night at 7pm. I expected to be back up around midnight and unable to sleep, but I was so miserable I had to just cut it off and try a reboot. Instead I woke up around 9am. Not entirely rebooted. I got up and read LJ and ( Read more... )

oh boy, what happened yesterday? Uh, let's see, first I couldn't sleep. Then I couldn't stay awake, so I wound up going to sleep around 7am and waking up with my alarm at 10am. Then I had my psychiatrist appointment where I told her I was suicidal more days than not. Then instead of asking if I had means and a plan she started trying to convince me ( Read more... )

I went to bed around 1am last night, and don't really remember what I did between 11 and midnight, although I tried to sleep 11:30 and got back up at 12:30 just to go back down at 1. The dog did not join me in bed, so I assume he didn't figure it out this time. I don't know what the secret is to keeping the dog off the bed, but I'm glad it worked ( Read more... )

Last night the women from fannish widows told me they all got antidepressants when their husbands died. The schizoaffective group also told me they all have antidepressants. Thus, I suspect my doctor of negligence in not giving me one, and have written to the new lady to ask for one. If she says no, I will complain to the patient advocate and see ( Read more... )

Another day wasted to depression. First I actually felt better overnight, talking to Kali and Alex, and I got my youtube videos watched and generally had a good night. Then I went to sleep around 3 or 4 am, and woke up again around 3pm. And my head was just filled with misery. I lay in bed for a little bit trying to hide from reality, but ( Read more... )

Today has been another crap day, thanks to depression. This is probably going to be a very short entry as I accomplished very little today. Despite going to bed at 3, I didn't get to sleep until after 5, when I earned my first "did you take your meds today?" from Victor, whom I had messaged with some crazy thing late at night. I don't think I did ( Read more... )