So yet again i have the internet. don't know where to start. Lonny broke up with me and a few weeks later he got engaged to the girl who introduced me to him 4 years ago (amanda) . he had told me he was in love with her too about a year and a half ago, but i didnt think he had a chance. and who am i to say they cant go bike riding or go to coffee ( Read more... )

Well Lonny and i are over. wasn't something bad that happened, no one did anything wrong. he just said that he loves me but no longer was in love with me. im not too interested in saying more than that. he really wants to be friends but i can't while im still in love with him ( Read more... )

today is my birthday!!! yay! well i only have a few min on his comp. Lonny and i decided to stay together. /we still dont know if we want to move into the house together or not. At the moment we live together with his mom but donno if moving alone together when we are still kinda fragile is a good idea. who knows? Big changes in my life recently ( Read more... )

Its strange. Im actually a little at peace at the moment. I'll update a little on background ( Read more... )

i missed all of you. i have access to a computer at least for tonight, i cannot write much at the moment (been a little sleep deprived) but i saw a link for a free 3 card sample tarot reading so i thought ::shrug:: what the hell ( Read more... )

I havent updated in a while. Lets see what has happened... hmmm. well Christmas was great with lonny's family. We got to be lazy and eat great food! lonny got me a dryer for my clothes (he is taking it back up to springville to get it fixed so it actually dries lol) and a huge cd case (which i asked him for) and a couple of video games. His mom got ( Read more... )

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Well i typed a big long lj post, but my comp froze and lost it all. Suffice it to say when i got the day approved off so i could go to my first family christmas eve party in 6 years or so i got the impression that my and lonny's presence would be TOLERATEDbut not welcome ( Read more... )

Well its great to have the net again. i cant tell you how much i have missed it. i have been suffering from being out of the loop from everyone as well as going through pandora.com withdrawls but i survived. now i just need me a new computer. but no worries. my man said he would build me a computer that actually has more than the 4 gigs i have now ( Read more... )

well im getting rid of my internet tomorrow night. runs too slow cant afford it and i dont use it for more than email occasionally and www.pandora.com (great internet radio site thanks amanda!) and yahoo messenger. plus im moving again in a month so it needs to be shut off anyways. keep in touch though.