So I'm determined not to return to work this week. However next week I may be I the lion's den. I legitimately did not get to sleep last night until six and I got a call from HR direct about returning to work and FMLA and the girl was bitchy and unhelpful (surprise) and totally uninterested in my discrimination case. So I had to call HR direct back ( Read more... )

I know why people kill themselves over holidays. I just was forced to spend two hours with relatives. I'm literally the only person in my family who is single. Everyone else has significant others. My eighteen year old sister has managed to enter into a healthy relationship something I have never been able to. I had like two boyfriends in high ( Read more... )

So Christmas is Dec 25 right? It's been a long standing tradition (unfortunately for me ) that my family (ie my mom, dad, sister and I), spend Christmas Eve (which if I'm correct is on Tuesday?) with my mother's family . Since my grandparents died my Uncle Brian has taken over Christmas Eve so everyone gets together and there is way too much food. ( Read more... )

My life is full of moments of weakness ( Read more... )

i don't have anything new to report. i just can't sleep at all ( Read more... )

and im not. i feel shitty and depressed and angry and anxious ( Read more... )

Man this weekend has just been really shitty. I've been grinding my teeth so my mouth hurts like a motherfucker because I'm sure I have twenty cavaties that need filled or teeth that need pulled but I don't have the money to fuck with that right now. So I keep popping tylenol. I'm pretty sure that's only going to work for so long but o well ( Read more... )

i am disappointingly sober. i fear I may have to drink some more. I had a glass of cotton candy and vodka earlier and its done nothing to assuage my depression and anxiety today. I'll prob have a little more. I prob shouldn't mix with my pills but it does have a pleasant effect usually. Hopefully it will later ( Read more... )

is it wrong that at  1250 pm im drinking already? not a lot just one drink. and mostly to get that nice soft hazy feeling so i can fall asleep. and then be up all night right ( Read more... )

im awake again. probably because i spent most of my day sleeping and watching tv. seriously. I left my bed like twice to sit in the living room and watch stuff on my computer cause all my shit is in here. which reminds me i need to cancel cable but im not going to UNLESS I don't get that other job but we shall see. this month is taken care of one ( Read more... )