Just a few moments ago I got a message on Facebook from a gal I went with to elementary school, junior high and high school. We'd been friends on and off. We'd been part of a little group of nerdy people who weren't popular and who were sometimes friends with me and sometimes mean like everybody else. I even wrote a story when I was about 12 that ( Read more... )

Even I have some things that I carry so much shame about that I don't talk about it. Even me, with the totally open policy in every other respect. Only those who are the very closest to me ever learn about this bit of mishugas (craziness). Usually they offer to try to help me fix the problem ( Read more... )

Last night I attended my bi-weekly therapy. I have a really good person-centred therapist who was referred by a friend. He's kink/queer positive, covered by OHIP, understands buddhist and "alternative" philosophies, and has done the work himself, so he understands the process well and can coach me through it as needed. Alas, his schedule is very ( Read more... )

I'm heading to bed shortly, but thought I'd share some of the random thoughts in my head right now, since they're not cohesive enough to post as anything else in particular.( Random thoughts )

It's not that I haven't had anything to say here or lacked for interest in saying it. For those who engage me in conversation online, by phone and in person I'm willing to talk about where I'm at. I just feel right now that if I said what was on my mind on the prevalent subject, I'd face judgement about my process ( Read more... )

kellfire posted this as her quote of the day. Sometimes her quotes are quite useful in the moment for me. The one right now I found quite relevant for a number of things. As is often the case, I like to share:

Forgiveness means giving up all hope of a better past.
~ Landrum Bolling

This week is the beginning of the Jewish high holidays. It starts with the Jewish New Year (aka Rosh Hashanah) and continues on from there for a few weeks. On Wednesday night I went to my mother's to celebrate the holiday and see my family. I have a very small family, consisting of my mother, sister and brother-in-law and their son (my nephew). My ( Read more... )

I've been rolling this one around in my head for the past month or so and wanted to put some of it down to help me think it through, seeing what comes of it as I write. That's often how I sort through things. I think about the subject in various contexts and then write out what I've been thinking to see what sifts to the top ( Read more... )

Okay, not as much candy, but really, this post is all about ( SEX )

Up until quite recently I was completely disconnected from the people of my childhood. I occasionally ran into someone from that time on the street and said a passing hello, but otherwise really didn't maintain contact with anybody I'd known from before the age of 19, when I moved out on my own ( Read more... )