The ambiguity of a "hey" sent in the wee hours of the morning.

Sometime last fall kc messaged me about a concert in Chicago on July 1st asking me if I wanted to go with him. It was two bands I like and that kc and I had bonded over. I said sure I'll go, but not really thinking it would ever happen, because why would it he never picks me for ( Read more... )

Young Frankenstein is going well, I got bumped up to the Hermit role because Mike is not able to do the show. There is a lot of that happening with the ensemble of this show. There is only nine people in the ensemble now because of drops, and we even had one addition too. I haven't talked to chanel since she dropped, (for the best) even though she ( Read more... )

I can't remember who I've told about the day Kc came back from SD after his accident. Thinking about it makes me feel a lot of things. Mostly shame, and just crudiness. Here is the rundown:

chanel and I had cleaned his apartment and taken care of his cats while he was gone. He was in SD for about two weeks, 11 days longer than originally planned. We ( Read more... )

Like hot water bottles but cold….I’ve been sleeping with a cold gel pack the past couple nights because I’ve been hot but still like blankets to cover me. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I’m so sick of being in my own head lately. I feel like everything I do I automatically psychoanalyze and my internal monologue is constantly explaining how and why things are for me. I ( Read more... )

I’ve been in a real funk as of late. I’ve told a couple people and some ask me, “is there anything I can do to help?” I don’t have an answer. Keep trying with me I guess? Kc really freezes up when I say I’m depressed. I wish he was different or I wish I didn’t care about him. Either would be better than this. I keep pouring out of my empty cup for ( Read more... )

Art, the play Kc was directing and ended up acting in was this past weekend. It was a really good show, we had read it together a while ago. I really like the style of comedy that Yasmina Reza uses, very clever but still ridiculous. I liked Art because it was a cast of three male friends but the way they related to, and expressed their feelings and ( Read more... )

I was meant to start my long dog sitting at the house with five pointed-short haired-wire hair-German-griffon dogs today, but their adult son forgot to ask off of work in time and is now can’t go on vacation with them. So, not only is a big chunk of my income gone I have nothing planned to do today.

They posted the cast list for Cinderella at wct. I ( Read more... )

I’ve been really busy. Mostly being depressed but also finding time to ruin nearly every aspect of my life. It’s my fault really, I can’t blame anyone else for me being the way I am. I’m trying to recall the last day I haven’t sobbed uncontrollably at some point in the day. I’ve invented imaginary friends who come and comfort me, take care of me. ( Read more... )

Fourth of July weekend adventure recap:

My friends Chanel, her husband Michael, Kc and I went on adventure to Door county and Sheboygan! We left supa early Saturday morns, ok like 8 but still, and headed out destination Door County. It quickly became clear that Kc's car was a poor choice to use as our adventure vehicle because his ac was broken. He ( Read more... )

Just reading my last entry about how I was anxious about working with Aaron makes me roll my eyes so fucking hard. I was SO wrong about both Aaron and Charles. Aaron is sweet, totally cool, and an absolute blast to work with. Charles, while a talented actor, is difficult to work with and even harder to be friends with. He has a lot of demons and is ( Read more... )