Well, my phone has been acting up lately. I got it replaced about a month ago, the same model just new. It stopped working again last week. So, they ordered the new replacement. I went and picked that up today and then went to take my Psychology exam.

The Psychology final was absolute misery. I could not remember most of the stuff on the test, even ( Read more... )

Well, Russ just dumped me five minutes ago. Over the phone in about three sentences.

He said he's not happy anymore.

So, I'm going to tell you all how I feel right now. I'm done hiding shit inside me.

I feel sick to my stomach, like I am going to throw up. I feel like our families sabotaged our relationship. I feel like my mental illness sabotaged our ( Read more... )

Everybody fails sometimes. Depending on how big your own personal failure is the scent of defeat may stick around for a long time.

I admit it, I failed hard.

Its pretty much every serious student's worst nightmare to have to leave their college and come home and attend a community school. That's exactly what happened to me. Everyone tells you that ( Read more... )

Sometimes, I consider going back to the days where I decided that I didn't have emotions and acted accordingly. But just because no one can see that you're hurt doesn't mean you aren't.

Its like watching someone kill me slowly in the mirror, some of these days. Its deliciously disturbing watching yourself die piece by piece, bit by bit and knowing its all the the product of something that you can't control. Something, you can't combat. Not like this. Its like being stuck in the dream from one of my favorite movies, old enough to ( Read more... )

You know, its really stupid when an upsetting conversation keeps you up all night. Because really you only have one option when you're done crying about it.

Instant replay.

You know you're not going to resolve the situation overnight, so your mind decides to become your own personal torture device- reconsidering the situation that sparked the ( Read more... )

I'm falling again ( Read more... )

I feel like every college kid has that moment when they want to drop out of school because they're poor and no longer believe in their academic abilities.

I am having that moment.

My life is so difficult right now and I know I have to stick with it because its better in the long run...

But right now I just kinda want to die.

Everyone has different ways of showing affection, I suppose.

I'm one of the ones that constantly informs people how much I miss them so that they never have any doubt. I'm always worried that I care much more about certain people than they do about me. Its a really unpleasant feeling and it leads to me trying to restrain my affection, and I feel ( Read more... )

So the stupid thing about going to college, is the fact that you have to start all over again: new friends, new school, sometimes a new city. Some people would say that this is the exciting part, that this is where your life really begins. But there's the good kind of excitement and the bad kind of excitement and I'd say that college is an even mix ( Read more... )