I can bring up anything in group and pretty much be fine but when it comes to even mentioning Minerva,  I break down and cry in front of everyone.

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In the library once again, with tears in my eyes as usual, as i desperately try to find job that i have not already applied for. It is getting hard. Getting sick of seeing the same listing for days now, some even a week or two. What are they waiting on ( Read more... )

So i was forced to go back to the hospital while in outpatient on Friday the 6th. They like to conveniently fail to tell you that if you don't go voluntarily then you will be sent there involuntarily. At that time it becomes involuntarily no matter what. This is a 51-50. They hold you for 3 days and you cannot leave. A 51-50 can become a 52-50 in ( Read more... )

It is kind of early but i figured i would write in here while i listen to some Norm MacDonald, my favorite comedian. A few things happened to me today ( Read more... )

Today was a crappy day. i cried multiple times during outpatient group therapy. i am being urged to go to the hospital again ( Read more... )

i normally write in here after my shower and before i get into bed but i'm bored and listening to Taking Back Sunday so i wanted to write ( Read more... )

Today i was late for outpatient again. This time it wasn't because of bingo but because Corri woke up late. i wasn't too late though, only by a half hour or so. After work, though, i dropped my resume off at some vet offices. Three of them didn't exist (stupid google maps). The one in Loomis is hiring customer service people and are offering full ( Read more... )

Today was an okay day. i overslept and missed some of my outpatient program. Corri never showed up either but i guess she asked me last night if i was going and i never got the text. She called 16 times while i was sleeping and thought i killed myself so she showed up at my house, high, at like 2 am. i don't remember any of it. Apparently i gave ( Read more... )

Today was fairly uneventful. i laid in bed all day watching movies on Netflix. i had myself a good cry over how shitty my life is right now. i suppose i shouldn't say my life is shitty. It is my current financial situation and work situation that is shitty. If i am going to turn my life around then it needs to start with finding myself a new job ( Read more... )

i am so bored right now. Minerva is on my lap so i can't get up of course. Nothing exciting happened in outpatient today. i am dreading the day they bring up what i owe. i had an appointment with my psychiatrist today. She wants me to see a therapist. Corri is going to try and get the number to her therapist. The therapist at Fair Oaks Psych. meets ( Read more... )