i just filled out an online application to Petco. They are looking for a grooming assistant. i *should* have a good shot, but that is not how it ever works anymore ( Read more... )

i wish i knew what to do. i don't know what it is, but i need something. Maybe it is cabin fever. It probably is cabin fever. i need something to do outside. i need a reason to leave here. i want so badly to not feel the way i do. i am this guy who stays in his room all day. i don't know. i really don't know. i just don't want to be a part of the ( Read more... )

i listened to Good Riddance (Time of Your Life) by Greenday yesterday. It was the first time in a very long time i was immediately reminded of both my last days of high school, and *middle school* dances ( Read more... )

i hated today. a lot. i don't know why but i just woke up with hate. i spent most of the day listening to the cure and tagging my photos on my computer with Google's horrible Software called Picasa. Fuck, it is horrible. It is v3 and it feels like it is still in Beta. It was awful ( Read more... )

i just don't know what to do. i have had job offers but they require me to have a damn car. It is taking everything i have to take the bus all over the place. It has been expensive. i want to go to school, but it's not possible if i am broke all the time. i'm so sick. i am craving dollar store cookies and i can't even afford them. i can't afford ( Read more... )

i want to try and go back to writing in here every night regardless of whether i have anything to say or not ( Read more... )

So i have really grown to like and care for Rosy. She is very sweet and even made me carrot cake. i never got to eat it but it was still nice of her. i text'd her telling her i would love some carrot cake and so she made me some. The problem with Rosy is she is an alcoholic and loves drugs. She'll do anything. She is risking her current living ( Read more... )

i think it's been a day or two since i wrote in here ( Read more... )

i sat on the swings tonight and day dreamed about my soul mate walking up and sitting next to me. She would be listening to Taking Back Sunday as i was and maybe even wearing a Taking Back Sunday shirt like i am. She would rescue me from my life. She would make everything better. Maybe she would be rich or have a rich family and was able to give me ( Read more... )

Well i broke down and cried for about an hour. Another night without sleep. Another night daydreaming about my unknown soul mate and stressing about how i am going to pay rent and my bills. i cried because i don't know what to do. i am royally fucked here. After crying, i had sex. i came hard but it was only a temporary release. i feel like crying ( Read more... )