i have no idea what i am doing/am going to do. My life currently hinges upon financial aid and going to school all year, every year until i land a job. At first, i thought it would be years and years; that i didn't have to worry about it. Well, now i do. Land a job? yeah. Okay ( Read more... )

well i just went on a fucking shopping spree when i shouldn't have. Pretty sure i will not be getting money in November. I got more letters about overpayment and then one on a payment schedule that puts October at 0$ (i got money in October, but i think the money is for the month before). i was going to call them, but what use. i do not have the ( Read more... )

i just need to write something. i just don't know what ( Read more... )

i guess it has been a little while. i had a very stressful weekend. First my entire Art New Media folder got deleted and i lost about 90% of everything. SO i had to start over and the more that i did, the more complicated and difficult my site became and i kept trying different techniques and time was running out. i had to skip socializing with ( Read more... )

i don't know what to do with myself at the moment. i really just want the night to fucking end. Today was awful ( Read more... )

Today was my first day of my second semester of school. i wore my new Death Note tee shirt today. i found out that Financial Aid disbursement has been pushed back by a WEEK! My bank account is about -200$ right now! i REALLY hope i do not need to purchase anything more for school. This is just awful news ( Read more... )

Oh my stars i am so angry. I bought a RetroN 3 so that i can play Sega/NES/SNES games. Then i bought games for it. I got the console and it doesn't fucking work. i am so angry and i will be angry until i get a response to my refund request. i will be angry some more if it is denied. i will be angry a little less if i do get a refund, but i will ( Read more... )

I'm experimenting with taking my journal out of private.

Still having income problems thanks to social security. I really should call them and tell them that I can't live and go to school on 300$ a month.

The cute girl in my sex class sat behind me today. Normally one of the outspoken older women sits behind me. The same one. She wasn't in class ( Read more... )

i can't stop crying. i just cannot believe how difficult it is the send an application to FAFSA. it has now been 2 weeks and they are STILL having problems. Right now the problem is they need me to correct my name before i can submit the app. But my name is correct. it is the name on my social security card which is the name they wanted. and so it ( Read more... )

i did a lot more college snooping today. Trying to find the best course of action. Melanie (the girl alex was trying to set me up with before i moved to Roseville) was a lot of help since she has experience with this. i still have no idea what i am doing though. It is way too overwhelming. It sounds like i should go to American River and get an ( Read more... )