It has always fascinated me that I fall in love so easily while in the midst of grief. Had any relationship ever been other than a rebound? From my father to my obsession with sex and my first boyfriends, and from them to Wolf, and just thirty days from Wolf (my first love), to Dragon (my second). Just a month single between Dragon and Porcupine, ( Read more... )

Excerpt: Paladin can't even look at what he wants, because he is terrified that going after what he wants means leaving me. But I don't know that I can continue to be there for him when he uses me as an excuse to pile more guilt on himself.( Read more... )

Last night I didn't fall asleep until around 4am... About six days ago now, when falling asleep I meditated on what I want to manifest in my life. It is people that matter most to me. I understand that now. So I was focusing on everything I wanted in person - authentic, compassionate, loving, honest, spiritual, intelligent, likes board games, and ( Read more... )

Monday, July 19th 2010 at 9:26am

Wheee! I'm up at a reasonable hour this morning! I got up at seven, for the first time in a while. Paladin being sick and stresses over the past few weeks has been a real downer, but I think things are beginning to smooth out again. My own energy levels are beginning to be up as much as down again, and soon I ( Read more... )

Thursday, July 1st 2010 at 3:30pm

Me: I ought to put my own resume up on there too, huh?

Cerylidae: Surely.

Me: I wonder if employers look for remote-working employees on here? I want a job where I stay at home.

Cerylidae: They do, just rarely.

Me: I have too many health issues to want to work somewhere I have to be. It would limit be ( Read more... )

Wednesday, January 27th 2010 at 1:35pm

The first major stumbling block has really hit me.

Funding for college works differently in Paladin's state than it does in mine. Also, one has to be a resident (live there for a year) before much of it even applies. So, if he moved to my home city, he might not be able to get any funding at all, and ( Read more... )

Notes from my Calendar...
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“Ramble about something!” I tell Paladin.

“About what?”

“Trees!” I choose arbitrarily. ( Read Full Entry; Click Here. )

Wednesday, December 9th 2009 at 1:59pm

The sharp crack of thunder startles me into pulling my pants up as I stand. I did not want to try shaving my privates bald for the first time in (three years?) ages to that tune. Hurriedly, feeling a sense of urgency for no reason whatsoever, I rush over to my laptop, tying the strings of my pants back ( Read more... )

Wednesday, December 2nd 2009 at 12:55pm

So Porcupine comes to visit me. How long has it been?

Thursday, December 3rd 2009 at 12:19pm

Paladin,

The desire to write you letter has struck me while in the midst of rereading “His Majesty's Dragon.” Often, as I am reading (as I have been these past few days - I'm in the fifth or sixth chapter now ( Read more... )

Monday, November 9th 2009 at 2:09pm

I've just read an article about libertarianism that Cerylidae sent me. I think... I might be a libertarian after all, although I'm not fully convinced. I still have questions. For example, without a welfare system, how would dependent fools survive? Granted, most people on welfare I probably don't give ( Read more... )