Last night I didn't fall asleep until around 4am... About six days ago now, when falling asleep I meditated on what I want to manifest in my life. It is people that matter most to me. I understand that now. So I was focusing on everything I wanted in person - authentic, compassionate, loving, honest, spiritual, intelligent, likes board games, and ( Read more... )

Thursday, July 22nd 2010 at 4:00pm

I'm having a pretty good day today. I've gone through another chapter of my novel adding in the new character I've added to change the tone of the book. That's the first six chapters I've done that with now. I've done some drawing on this crazy picture of pink and blue stairs. I've read a chapter in Issola ( Read more... )

Wednesday, June 9th 2010 at 11:56am

This is a comment I left on another person's journal that led me to believe I really need to take the time to write today;

I realized as I was reading this entry why I’ve been so stressed lately. I used to take my ‘doing nothing’ time, and write. That writing was my reflection time. But lately I’ve been ( Read more... )

Wednesday, February 3rd

[9:54pm]

Well - two spicy sausages, a rice dish made for my love, and a shopping trip that resulted in many laughs, a scarf, a shirt and a hat - later, and I've returned to my laptop and Paladin sits besides me loading up Price of Persia - the first one.

Monday, February 8th 2010 at 8:00am

Not sure why I have not ( Read more... )

Notes from my Calendar...
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“Ramble about something!” I tell Paladin.

“About what?”

“Trees!” I choose arbitrarily. ( Read Full Entry; Click Here. )

Thursday, November 26th 2009 at 8:42pm

Paladin... fills my thoughts. I finally think about an individual more than I think about Porcupine. It's glorious.

As I said it to Pony;

“I met somebody on the dating site who is really good for me. Someone who I can really connect with. He and I sit on cam talking for hours upon hours without getting ( Read more... )

Monday, November 2nd 2009 at 3:08pm

Late last night I wrote:

“I can't stand this single-dom. Today was exactly eight months from the day I left my ex. It even was a Sunday that I left him. March 1st.. The same day (incidentally) that the house fire happened when I was 14. Both blessings and curses at the same time.
“I still think about my ex a ( Read more... )

Sunday, October 25th 2009 at 1:07pm

Pony: How are you?

Me: Doing okay

Pony: Wanna elaborate?

Me: Actually, I've been in a hellish depression this past week.

Last weekend I was just extremely lonely. Without currently have school or work to force me to socialize, and with the weather turning cold... I just have had less motivation and less ( Read more... )

Thursday, October 22nd 2009 at 5:25pm

When in doubt and feeling lost... write. Write like your life depended on it... Hell, maybe your life does depend on it.

Seeing Porcupine yesterday was entirely too blissful. The only disagreement that almost happened, didn't. I told him, “You're doing that thing again Porcupine, that thing were you' ( Read more... )

Saturday, October 3rd 2009 at 3:09pm

So, just now, I wrote my father;

If you and Sheep are going to continue to smoke in the house then I need to spend all of my time looking for somewhere to move to. I have not cleaned my bathroom properly in months because I can't stay in there long enough to do it. After just taking a piss I already have a ( Read more... )