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He wrote me for the first time on August 4th 2016, opening with, "I have a couple balls in the air, but was reading your profile and got quite excited. It is nothing big for me to be natural or for those around me to be, neud is pretty par for people with me and it is not an accent, merely being. That said, this applies to nearly all aspects of my ( Read more... )

I was returning to myself, slowly. For weeks I'd felt more like I was a human-doing, and less of a human-being. The day after my wedding with Hibiscus I had felt abandoned and lost when he went out to eat with his friends, and then what? I'd resigned myself to it all - my new life. I'd just committed to it, so why fight it? I submitted myself.
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I was on my third day of intermittent fasting and feeling rather exhausted. Light-headed, and unsure I could keep up the five-hour-eating-window, I came into Paladin's room for distraction, comfort and care.
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It was eleven-thirty on April 22nd 2016. Half an hour until I'd allow my eating window to begin and eat. My emotions were sharper and easier ( Read more... )

Hibiscus said, "I'm going to change into something more comfortable."
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He came back a few minutes later wearing a bright blue button-down shirt. Those don't seem like pajamas. Does he want me to come on to him? He's smiling at me? What's that about?
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I raised my eyebrows at him. "You're looking for a reaction from me," I said. But what reaction is ( Read more... )

Hare arrived on Friday night.
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Saturday morning I went out with Hare and Hibiscus while Paladin slept. Why does he sleep all the time now?
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We bought groceries, including groceries for Hare. It was part of the agreement: She would teach workshops in Hibiscus's home at Silverstag Eco Hamlet over the weekend, and we would pay for her food, and ( Read more... )

Tuesday, March 1st 2016
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The flight leaving Sunnyland had been only a third full. I was able to have three seats to myself. I napped a little, laying across all three of them.
.When I woke I spent $2 on a pair of ear-bud headphones and did something I hadn't done in years. I watched a new movie. It was called Clueless. I choose it because of how ( Read more... )

[Monday]
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In the time I spent with Tengiz and Avani at their house in Sunnyland, Tengiz gave me a lot to think about. Privacy. Identity. Judgements and how those impact our self concept. Raw food as Earth Worship.
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"When a man ejaculates," Tengiz said, "he gives his life-force to the woman. He ages. There is a formula I can show you for how often a ( Read more... )

[Sunday]
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At two-thirty in the morning (Sunnyland time), I texted Hibiscus, "Something has gone very wrong on my end. I'm trying to have faith that this is for the best. Send me a prayer?"
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Sunday morning, Hibiscus texted me back: "Of course I will. Can you say wrong how? Are you safe?" But I was still asleep. After I woke, I didn't check my texts ( Read more... )

Read part one, telling of how things went with Nelum on Friday and Saturday morning, and the beginning of White Whale's party by clicking here.
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Excerpt: {I expected that he would return after stowing it in his car, but ten minutes later he had not returned.}( Read more... )