So guess what, I actually passed the revalidation and got in as a probationary employee! After the revlidation  I actually felt really light and more happy. I thought back on why things were so rough back then and I could hardly piece together anything. How small things turned into something so major for me. I suppose I was stressed out by the ( Read more... )

I used to think that me getting a job would make it easier in terms of financial stuff but right now I kind of feel like I'm being much more of a burden than actually being able to help out. I'm really out of cash I don't even have money to go to work or eat so I have to ask my Mom for money to spend for the day, asking money from her lets her ( Read more... )

It's time to dump my thoughts here again. There's been quite a lot running through my mind for the past days and there's really no way to unload all of them so I must turn back to this and let them run free and move on with my life. Hmm, though I don't think there's much to say anymore...maybe if I wrote about it right away there was a lot to say. ( Read more... )

Yesterday was Valentines and I spent it with a guy who was just as bitter or well, was sulking over the whole thing. It was a bit weird, but walking around the mall surrounded by couples, either holding hands, holding flowers or wearing couple shirts just made the both of us long for something we both didn't have. It was a good day though. Pretty ( Read more... )

I think I'm not going to be serious with love anytime soon. I think I'm going to go and play around first until I know that the other won't walk away from me and hurt me.

It has been a day. A day since I first read those words that brought me down from my happy place. I've been trying to find words to describe everything. Surprisingly, I didn't even share my own thoughts instead I just fully resigned to that. Submitted. I am in the middle of accepting. Yes I am broken and yet with how I look at things, I know, I ( Read more... )