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So guess what, I actually passed the revalidation and got in as a probationary employee! After the revlidation I actually felt really light and more happy. I thought back on why things were so rough back then and I could hardly piece together anything. How small things turned into something so major for me. I suppose I was stressed out by the pressure that I've put upon myself to be a good trainee and to get the job. So I did get in. Of course not with flying colors. There were things that flew out of my head during the panel defense and I got stumped on certain protocols. It was a bit nerve wrecking especially when you were faced with every team head in every game department.
So yeah, I have a job. I'm employed and all. Finally yeah? Hmm, I think right now there will be a renewed pressure. We have monthly feedback and all and I think I'm aiming to be a better employee. I said I'd stick around for a year and so but yeah. Reading yesterday's contract and the guidelines on how to pass probationary employee just had me all riled up again. We were allowed to play yesterday only because the ticket count wasn't as many and we all had our share of answering some tickets but I was kind of...how to put it? Nervous at some point that I'm not doing my job well. I'm not very sure but yeah. :| I must be stressing myself out again. I should relax and just do what I do. If I did well as a trainee then I suppose I'll do well as a probee. It's not that the job is any different right? It's the same thing that I do just that, this time you should be better but yes, everything is a learning experience. There is still a lot to learn and I just have to rid myself of hesitation. I can do this. I know I can. I shouldn't stress myself out. Heck, I don't even know when I'm stressed out. :| ugh what is this.
On other things, I think my knee joints are starting to get tricky. :| I'm getting old fast. -___- Mmmmm. I should ask when I get my full medical exam next week. Ugh I'm afraid of those. What if they find something I didn't know I have. :| I don't want to be sick or anything....or have any disorders. Scary shit......
Birthday's not too far off. I wonder if there will be surprises in store? I have to set aside birthday money plus money to treat friends and all.
So yeah, I have a job. I'm employed and all. Finally yeah? Hmm, I think right now there will be a renewed pressure. We have monthly feedback and all and I think I'm aiming to be a better employee. I said I'd stick around for a year and so but yeah. Reading yesterday's contract and the guidelines on how to pass probationary employee just had me all riled up again. We were allowed to play yesterday only because the ticket count wasn't as many and we all had our share of answering some tickets but I was kind of...how to put it? Nervous at some point that I'm not doing my job well. I'm not very sure but yeah. :| I must be stressing myself out again. I should relax and just do what I do. If I did well as a trainee then I suppose I'll do well as a probee. It's not that the job is any different right? It's the same thing that I do just that, this time you should be better but yes, everything is a learning experience. There is still a lot to learn and I just have to rid myself of hesitation. I can do this. I know I can. I shouldn't stress myself out. Heck, I don't even know when I'm stressed out. :| ugh what is this.
On other things, I think my knee joints are starting to get tricky. :| I'm getting old fast. -___- Mmmmm. I should ask when I get my full medical exam next week. Ugh I'm afraid of those. What if they find something I didn't know I have. :| I don't want to be sick or anything....or have any disorders. Scary shit......
Birthday's not too far off. I wonder if there will be surprises in store? I have to set aside birthday money plus money to treat friends and all.