I feel very sad today. I have this rush of emotion, and I'm not entirely sure where it's coming from. I didn't have the best voice class today, in spite of my constant practice. Mike thought my warm ups were great, but Un Bel di Vedremo wasn't the best. I'm still new at it, but he wasn't very encouraging, and I ended class feeling defeated ( Read more... )

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I woke up very sad today. It's the first time I've been depressed since I moved into 83 Meserole. everything seems incomplete- unfulfilling. I know I'm very hormonal (my period is due any minute), but these problems aren't invented just because I'm hormonal ( Read more... )

Something is off about Daniel from L.A. Or maybe it's just my past traumas. Little things like my reading his piece and getting back to him within a day, and then he asked me to send him a piece of mine, so I did, and two days have now gone by. I will ask him about it because I'm tired of having this happen with people-especially with people who've ( Read more... )

Josh asked my father to check on me and see if I'm okay because he thinks I might be depressed. This is proof that he's avoiding me. Why can't he ask himself? I've been there for both him and Robin as much as I could be for the past month or so, and he can't send me a text message to see if I'm okay? I'm a little angry about this...This is why I am ( Read more... )

I have to get this off my chest because it's been bothering me awhile now, and I think I'm going to have to say something: I really don't like the way Robin treats Josh. I haven't ever liked it, and I've always looked for evidence to the contrary, but it pisses me off. I am pissed off. He's so nice to her, and he is a sucker for her. He will do ( Read more... )

I received a text message from Josh about two hours ago, saying that Lindsey and Amy are driving to the funeral and asking if I'd like to join them. I said yes, left work early, and came to their house. Since Josh and Robin left in a hurry and before their laundry had been delivered, they gave me a list of things to bring them. I'll be leaving ( Read more... )

Robin's mother, Sue Katz, died today. It's been so terrible. I had these morbid thoughts all of yesterday, and then I was dreaming and Josh was calling me and I had dreams of an emergency. Josh called me twice and then a third call from Robin woke me up sometime around 11 or midnight. Robin's mother had fallen in the bathroom, her father ran ( Read more... )

I just disabled the OKCupid account. I'm going to look at that as an experiment, I think. It's good to know so many random guys were interested in me, however I don't think the site is anything but a source of exhaustion for me. I don't know how to find a normal person in real life, but I suppose it'll either happen or it won't. I'm tired. I don't ( Read more... )

So I've started the Ketogentic (or, as I like to call it, the anti-Cancer) Diet today. Go health ( Read more... )