Loving anyone is very, very painful. I'm not sure what the point is. Looking for a "partner" seems to just be a form of self-sabotage ( Read more... )

I slept through the night for the first time in months. I've been meditating and doing yoga, both of which have seemed to really help me get a grip on myself ( Read more... )

 Okay...four things:

1. I'M GOING TO VENICE

2. I'M GOING TO CARNEVALE....IN VENICE

3. I'M GETTING ENGAGED!!!!

4. THE HOTEL JOHN PICKED IS IN A PALAZZO DATING BACK TO 700 AD THAT WAS TURNED INTO A HOTEL AT THE TURN OF THE 19TH CENTURY


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I'm in an alright mood. I'm excited to go to therapy, but that's on Wednesday. Last session (which also happens to be my first session) with Marilyn (hurray! I give her a name) proved to be so uplifting. I spoke the entire time and surprised myself by delivering a summary of my life as coolly as I would a lecture. It surprised me that I didn't jump ( Read more... )

I had dinner with John and his parents last night and actually had a decent time. I talked much more and had a "fuck what they think, I'm me" attitude all night and it actually worked really well. I wasn't abrasive, just very inquisitive when no one was talking to me and verbalized a lot of my observations. They took to that very well and his ( Read more... )